luna says

Happy Chinese New Year..

2012-01-21T23:37:00.002+08:00

Wahai blogku,

Bertemu kembali setelah 7 bulan...apa cerita ya aku sekarang..

Setelah 7 bulan anda boleh lihat aku tak give up pun kan,masih boleh kekal di sini.Di tempat asing yang aku tak kenal siapa pun..

Yang paling penting aku sekarang dah tak rasa sakit hati lagi..kesakitan itu dah hilang ditelan waktu.Sememangnya keputusan aku untuk berpindah ini adalah terbaik..

Semalam pun aku dah mula menderma darah kembali,bermakna aku dah kembali sihat..tekanan darah aku dah ok..yelah sebab memang aku dah menjauhkan diri daripada benda yg boleh memberi tekanan kepada aku..aku tahu diri aku macammana...

Aku tak boleh lupa saat aku tak sihat dulu bila doktor mengesyaki aku ada sakit 'thalasemia'..apa perkara yang boleh membuatkan aku tertekan sampai sakit..

Sudah sampai masanya aku berhenti berkorban untuk orang lain tapi memikirkan kesejahteraan diri sendiri...asyik jaga orang je diri sendiri pun tak terjaga..aku bukanlah superhero ke apa yg terlalu kuat sangat..lama-lama pun boleh letih...

Aku seorang yg suka bebas,bebas membuat apa yg aku suka..

Aku tak menyesal pun dengan keadaan sekarang..walau aku tiada siapa pun di sini tapi sekurang-kurangnya aku rasa tenang..ketenangan itulah yang susah nak cari sebelum ni..aku perlukan masa untuk diri aku...

A fresh start..

2011-06-09T17:48:00.002+08:00

Semua orang pun asyik bertanya aku perkara yang sama.Kenapa mesti berpindah ke Utara?
Well.

1)i'm deeply hurt & it was so painful until i can't stand it anymore.i've been very tired,like being beaten so badly.

2) i've got very good offer,a chance for me to do what I like the most.

3)I've been blessed with 2nd chance so i have to cherish this and return the kindness.

4) i want to be close to my home & my family

5)I wanted to start fresh,meeting with new people in my life.

That's all i can say.

Here come the lion..

2011-05-23T21:31:00.003+08:00

This time i would like to challenge myself i suppose..

It's the time for me to do some brainstorming and all of its kind!

To whom it may concern: I already finish reading the book 'Keluarkan singa dari dalam diri anda'.

P.S. adakah singa suka makan coklat vochelle? :P

Antara dua pilihan..

2011-05-23T13:01:00.005+08:00

Wahai blogku,hari ini aku merasa sungguh tidak senang sekali.Aku sekarang terpaksa membuat pilihan yang sukar.Pilihan A atau B?

Luna,are you gonna stay or move? well,whether i like it or not i have to choose.Time is running out..

Fikir2kanlah..

2011-05-21T10:33:00.004+08:00

Sekiranya kamu tahu api boleh membakar,takkan kamu mahu berada dekat dengan api itu lagi,tentulah kamu akan menjauhkan diri daripadanya bukan?Itulah yg sy nak cuba sampaikan di sini.

Suatu ketika dahulu,sy pernah menghadapi krisis perhubungan dengan bekas teman lelaki sy,sy seperti digantung tidak bertali pada masa itu.Bekas teman lelaki sy mencadangkan,sy rase mungkin kita patut break untuk sementara waktu.Setelah mengambil masa untuk berfikir sy pun menjawab email beliau.Sy menjawab dengan ringkas dan padat,"Sy rase baik kita break up terus je dan jadi kawan sajelah".

Orang boleh menuduh sy membuat keputusan secara terburu2 tetapi sy memahami diri sy.Jika perkara tersebut berterusan membuat sy 'sakit' dan sy tidak nampak jalan penyelesaiannya,buat apa sy tunggu dan membuang masa sy lagi.

Jika seseorang itu hanya melihat kepentingan dan keadaan dirinya sahaja tanpa memahami keadaan yg seorang lagi,anda boleh mengenal pasti hubungan itu sebagai 'one sided'.Jadi adakah hubungan seperti itu yang anda inginkan?

Sy memahami diri sy jadi sy memutuskan untuk tidak mahu sakit lagi.Selepas break sy merasa lebih tenang dan dapat membuat perkara yg hendak sy buat selama ini.Walaupun tidaklah menjadi kawan baik tetapi kami masih berkawan hingga ke hari ini.

Sy pernah dikritik sebagai seorang yang 'streotype'.Maksud orang itu pada masa itu adalah baginya sy seorang yang jenis mengikut sahaja.Yes..yes.. jelah kot..Anyway, you think again! Untuk pengetahuan semua,sy adalah seorang yang tak suka di 'control'.The more you want to control me the more i would run away from you.Sy adalah seorang yg independent dan suka membuat sesuatu mengikut cara sy yang tersendiri,sy suka diberi kebebasan.Itu yg kadang2 orang tak faham sy.

Sy sebenarnya adalah seorang yg tak suka argue atau berbalah2 dan menyalurkan tenaga kepada perkara yang negatif seperti memekik dan menjerit2 menyuarakan ketidakpuasan dimana akhirnya orang itu akan berakhir dengan mengucapkan sesuatu yang tidak patut diucapkan.Bercakap banyak tetapi satu point apa pun tiada,bukankah membuang masa sahaja?

Sy seorang yang tidak suka cakap banyak,lebih2 lagi sampai melalut2 dan menyakitkan hati orang.If you want to see my disagreement you will see it through my action.For me, action speaks louder than words!

Sy tidak akan dapat meramal seseorang yang panas baran dan biasanya berkata2 mengikut perasaan dan bukan rasional.Seorang yg main cakap lepas je,bercakap banyak tp satu point pun tak nampak.Juga seorang yang lebih cenderung menggunakan kekerasan daripada cara perbincangan.Sekiranya sy cakap banyak dengan beliau,tidak mustahil sy boleh ditumbuk di depan2 orang ramai.

Apa yg sy rasa tidak munasabah lg ialah kecenderungan seseorang itu melihat dia sahaja yang betul tanpa pernah melihat dari sudut pandang orang lain.Sekurang-kurangnya cubalah mendengar apa yang orang mahu cerita sebelum membuat 'judgement' anda.Ini sy baru cakap sepatah,dia dah 5 patah dan cuba deny point yg sy cuba cakap.Juga tidak pernah minta maaf atas kesalahannya.Sekurang-kurangnya sy apabila terasa diri ini dah buat salah,sy akan minta maaf,yelah kita tak tahu benda yg kita buat tu mungkin menyakiti orang walaupun tiada niat berbuat begitu.Mungkin dilakukan tanpa disedari.Jadi silakanlah merendahkan ego anda dan minta maaf sajalah.

Juga bila dah tahu macam tu akan cuba tidak mengulangi kesilapan itu bukan?Ini asyik kita je yg salah,dia je yg betul.I'm bored already.Sy tahu orang seperti ini susah nak berubah.Tapi biarlah suatu hari dia fikir sendiri.Bila bekas suami,emak,teman lelaki & yg terbaru kawannya sendiri tinggalkan dia.Kenapa semua orang nak tinggalkan dia? Fikir2kanlah sendiri dan selamat beramal.hehehe..

Cumanya sy pernah ditanya suatu soalan.Are you a loyal person? Without hesitation,I said,yes I am.Sy sangat pasti dengan jawapan sy.Sy tidak pernah menceritakan keburukannya kepada orang sekeliling dia,at least kepada orang yang dia kenal,sy cuma pergi begitu sahaja.Malaslah nka cerita2,nanti orang banyak tanya.I don't like.Sy cuma menulis tentangnya di dalam blog ni yg sy rasa,tiada orang yang kenal dia disini.

Begitulah pengakhirannya.Sy mendoakan dari jauh semoga anda lebih tenang & rasional di masa hadapan ketika berdepan dengan masalah dan ketika cuba membuat penilaian.Di sini sy ingin tegaskan sy tidak pernah membenci seseorang itu,sy cuma membenci 'attitude' dan 'tindakan' seseorang itu sahaja.I'm quite a forgiven person.Sy boleh menerima seseorang itu kembali sekiranya 'attitude' beliau telah berubah.Membenci seseorang secara 'individually' bermakna kamu membenci dia secara keseluruhan,padahal masih ada sifat baik dalam dirinya.At least dia pernah menolong sy pada suatu ketika.That one i'll always appreciate..

A journey..

2011-05-20T12:24:00.004+08:00

Lama sudah aku tak menulis di sini rasenye.
Terima kasih Tuhan,akhirya aku sudah menemui cara aku.
Kadang-kadang orang mungkin tak memahami aku.
Biar aku beritahu sedikit mengenai diri aku.
Sekiranya aku melihat sesuatu perkara itu tidak munasabah pada pandangan aku,maka aku tak akan layan perkara itu lagi.
Begitu juga sekiranya aku mendapati seseorang itu seperti sudah tidak munasabah,aku biasanya akan lari daripadanya.
Bukan bermakna aku betul2 bencikan seseorang itu,cumanya aku mahu melindungi diri aku dari 'dicederakan' oleh orang yang bagi aku sudah tidak munasabah itu.
Pada masa itu aku fikir aku tak akan dapat mengawal orang ini lagi,jadi biarlah dia dengan caranya.Perkara yang tak munasabah aku susah untuk menerima.
Kamu lebih mudah menjatuhkan hukuman sebelum mendengar cerita daripada saya.
Saya cuba membuka ruang komunikasi tapi kamu telah menutupnya..
Kamu fikir kamu menghukum sy tapi ketahuilah sebenarnya kamu telah menghukum diri kamu sendiri.Kamu tak beri peluang pun untuk diri sendiri.
Tiada memberi peluang kepada diri sendiri untuk berubah.
Sy percaya kamu tidak merasa gembira pun kan?
Sungguh kasihan ni,tapi maaf sy pun dah tak dapat nak menolong.
Hidup ini adalah tentang pilihan,jadi kamu telah membuat pilihan kamu,maka saya pun telah membuat pilihan saya juga..
Mungkin orang akan lihat sy sebagai orang yang mudah mengaku kalah
Walauapapun,saya tidak peduli..
Jika sy membalas balik perbuatannya,maka sy pun sama sepertinya juga.
Contohnya la kan;Dia buat sy balas,dia buat sy balas lg dan lg dan lg.
Jadi kamu fikirlah sampai bilakah perkara ini akan berakhir?
Sampai mati pun tak habis2..Bosan tak?
Macam membuang masa pun ya jugak macam tu..
Seperti yang saya kata tadi hidup ini adalah tentang pilihan.
Life is too short..
So why you want to complicate things?..
it's all about your choices..

Korban..

2010-11-19T16:57:00.000+08:00

Sempena Hari Raya Korban ni aku ingin bercakap mengenai ‘pengorbanan’. Yang aku tahu aku telah berkorban 2 perkara yg penting bagi aku semata-mata untuk memperbetulkan keadaan & melindungi apa yg patut dilindungi.Aku terpaksa lepaskan 2 perkara itu,tiada pilihan lagi di masa itu.Disebabkan melepaskan 2 perkara itu aku terpaksa berdepan dengan kesan melepaskan dua perkara itu.Bukan mudah juga,hanya Tuhan & diriku saja yg tahu.Macam2 rasa aku rasa.Tapi orang kata setiap sesuatu yg berlaku tu ada hikmahnya.

Meskipun orang tak faham pengorbanan yg aku lakukan,aku redha melakukannya.Malah sekiranya hingga ke tahap ‘nyawa’ aku perlu diambil untuk perjuangan ini,aku rela. Aku rasa tiada sorang pun yg faham keadaan ini,sukar untuk diperjelaskan kepada umum.Tapi aku hanya sebgai hamba yg lemah,aku ada kelemahan aku sendiri.Perjuangan yg tiada org faham mungkin sekiranya perlu aku perlu berhijrah ke tempat yg org lebih memahami.

Tapi disebalik semua itu Tuhan telah bagi ‘sesuatu’ yg hari ini baru aku sedar aku memilikinya.Selama ini mungkin aku langsung tak menyedarinya.Tuhan telah ambil sesuatu dan memberi sesuatu yg lain.Mungkin sesuatu itu adalah yg terbaik untukku.Akan aku hargainya…

Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha untuk semua…

Movies' Marathon..

2010-11-15T17:15:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, I went for movies with my old friends. GSC now has been hosting the European Union Film Festival (EUFF) starting from 11th-21st Nov. The ticket only cost RM 5 for each movie. That’s the main factor for my movies’ marathon, the 1st time ever in my history.

The beauty from these films is it enlightens us about some life issues such as survival, friendship, true love and humanitarian. It brings us to life. I can see the other side of life from the director’s view. In other words, these movies somehow teach me a life lesson.

Forgiveness is somehow hard to give but if you give you actually forgive yourself. No one can help you on that. You must do it by your own and do it everyday. Someday you will succeed no matter how hard it takes to forgive someone.

Life is just series of event. Whatever happening in the event you have just to move on. Some people just don’t want to move, they stuck at their past It just make things difficult to you and other people. In some situation, one just needs help from people around them to make a move.

People say the best gift you can give to a friend is loyalty. But it is a bonus if you have a friend who always loyal to you, being with you in rain or shine to the extend that he/she might sacrifice for you his/her life if it necessary. You can see how loyal is Saidina Abu Bakar to Prophet Muhammad (PBUH).

True love goes beyond race,age and distance. You always want to be with your loved one. Even if your loved one leaves your first, you will not leave the place that he/she was buried. By living in their place is just like you still have part of he/she remains with you.

So many films, filming in different part of Europe, screening a story on what life has to offer to you. So just don’t miss it!

Suatu pengalaman..

2010-10-27T17:20:00.001+08:00

Lama dah tak menulis di sini.Rasenye mahu menceritakan sedikit pengalaman baru ketika mengikuti program ESQ 165 (Emotional & Spritual Quotinent).Sebelum mengikuti program sy pun tak berapa faham program ESQ tu macammana,cuma pernah terbaca mengenai program tu & Dr. Ary Ginanjar Agustian dalam majalah Mingguan Wanita.Ramai orang telah mengikutinya.

Lalu sy pun bertanya pendapat kakak sy yg pernah mengikuti program.Dia kate tak ada salahnya kamu mengikuti program tu,pergi & rasai sendiri,kamu pasti boleh menilai sendiri samaada ia baik atau buruk.Melihatkan sahabat sy begitu bersungguh2 mahu sy merasainya sy pun bersetuju.Sy percayakannya.Fikir sy,pasti ada sesuatu yg istimewa.Sebagai seorang yg mempunyai daya ingin tahu yg tinggi,sy agak terbuka untuk apa2 input terbaru.

Pada hari pertama,sy pun datang dengan hati,minda jiwa yg terbuka.Dibuka seluas-luasnya.Tidak memikirkan apa2 kecuali apa yg ingin diisi di dalam sana nanti.Lagipun sy sedang bercuti,jadi tidak terikat dengan apa2 kerja pun.Akhirnya apabila masuk ke sana,sy diminta duduk di barisan hadapan sekali pula tu.Sy tenang saja & duduk di sebelah seorang akak yg sy fikir dia lebih tua daripada sy.Sy cuma tersenyum kepadanya.

Slot permulaan lebih kepada sesi pengenalan mengenai ESQ.Sepanjang training sy tak menulis ape2 pun.Sudah dinyatakan awal2 lagi,ini ialah experience training,jadi tak perlu menulis,cuma dengar & rasakan aja.Setelah 2 hari training sy dapat memahami apa yg ingin disampaikan di dalam ESQ training ini.Mesejnya cuma satu iaitu ingin mendekatkan diri kepada-Nya yg satu.Bagaimana mahu mendekatinya? Seseorang yg kita cintainya seharusnyalah kita mengetahui banyak perkara tentang-Nya barulah kita akan lebih mencintai-Nya.Through His Messenger,Prophet Muhammad (PBUH) & His Book,Al-Quranul Karim.

Sudahkah kita ketahui semua nama-nama-Nya & sifat-Nya.Sudahkah kita kaji kesemua kalam-Nya (Al-Quran).Untuk apa dia menciptakan bumi ini,tidak pernahkah kamu berfikir? Itu pertanyaan yg sy tanya diri sy.Tidak dijadikan kesemua ‘kehidupan’ ini kalau utk sia2 shj.

Justeru itu,jika diminta pendapat peribadi sy tentang ESQ itu sy berkata tiada apa salahnya jika sesiapapun nk mengikuti program ini.Setiap orang adalah ‘da’i’ (pendakwah) di mukabumi ini dan ESQ berdakwah dengan caranya yg tersendiri.Dia mengajak kita mentauhidkan Allah dan tidak mengajak kita menyekutukan-Nya dengan yg lain.Jadi sy tidak nampak ianya ada penyimpangan dari ajaran agama.

Tentang kononnya ia menyamakan Asmaul Husna & konsep Bushido orang Jepun.sy rasa tuduhan itu tidak tepat.Ia tidak menyamakan sama sekali sekadar membuat perbandingan.Jadi kita boleh lihat disitu selama ini di mana2 pun manusia menyukai & menyintai sifat Allah S.W.T itu sendiri.Manusia tercari2 sifat Allah itu.Manusia itu sendiri datang daripada Allah maka ia pasti sedikit sebanyak menyukai apa yg ada pada Allah.

Cuma ada satu sahaja slot dalam program ini yg membuat sy mungkin agak kurang selesa.slot yang ramai sangat orang menangis tu la kot.Itu ikut pada orangnya mungkin.Sy punya hanya seorang yang boleh menangis ketika sy bersolat,ketika hanya sy dgn Dia sahaja.Jika ada orang lain di sekeliling adalah susah bagi sy. Itu pun sy tidak akan menangis meratap.Cuma air mata sy bergenang & merasakan perasaan sebak yg amat sangat dalam dada.Perasaan yg amat hebat di dalam sana.Perlahan-lahan kamu pasti akan merasai kasih sayang Allah itu.Dia tidak akan terlihat secara zahirnya tetapi kamu merasai kehadiran-Nya.Setiap orang pasti mendambakan Pencipta-Nya.

Suatu saat di dalam hidup yg sy begitu sebak & sayu adalah ketika hari sy melakukan tawaf wida’,hari terakhir sy berada di Makkah.Ketika itu hampir waktu tengahari,sy menolak kerusi roda abah mengiringi emak & abah pulang selepas mengerjakan umrah buat kali terakhir.Ketika melalui Kaabah sy berjln dgn amat perlahan sekali,terasa amat sedih untuk meninggalkan Baitullah itu.Ketika sudah hampir hendak meninggalkan Kaabah itu,sy tetap berpaling untuk melihatnya buat kali terakhir.Ketika itulah air mata sy jatuh bergenang,terasa amat sebak.Jiwa sy bergetar.Mungkinkah sy akan dipanjangkan umur untuk menjadi tetamu Allah lagi?

The advice from my friend...

2010-10-22T11:56:00.000+08:00

Sometimes in life, you find a special friend;
Someone who changes your life
just by being part of it.
Someone who makes you laugh
until you can't stop;
Someone who makes you believe
that there really is good in the world.
Someone who convinces you
that there really is an unlocked door
just waiting for you to open it.
Always try to help a friend in need

Believe in yourself

Be brave...but it's ok to be afraid sometimes

Study hard

Give lots of kisses

Laugh often

Don't be overly concerned with your weight, it's just a number

Always try to see the glass half full

Meet new people, even if they look different to you

Remain calm, even when it seems hopeless

Take lots of naps..

Be weird whenever you have the chance

Love your friends, no matter who they are

Don't waste food

RELAX

Take an occasional risk

Try to have a little fun each day.
...it's important

Work together as a team

Share a joke with friends

Fall in love with someone..

...and say "I love you" often

Express yourself creatively

Be conscious of your appearance

Always be up for surprises

Share with friends

Watch your step

It will get better

There is always someone who loves you more than you know

Exercise to keep fit

Live up to your name

Seize the Moment

Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between

Indulge in the things you truly love

Cherish every Sunday

... PRAY ...

....... and close your eyes

It belong to the museum...

2010-10-12T16:57:00.000+08:00

I’m wondering how one identifies whether something is fake or genuine. But after some deliberation I guess better I don’t know the answer at all. We should keep historical artifact in the museum right? So it belongs to the museum.

I sometimes got headache because have to deal with the engineering things.How I wish that I’m an engineer,an electrical engineer.I hate to read the technical drawing.

Mimpi oh mimpi..

2010-10-01T12:30:00.000+08:00

Inilah mimpi aku beberapa hari yg lepas,aku pun tak tahu ape maksud mimpi aku tu.Aku pada masa tu tengah makan laksa sorang2 di suatu kedai makan.Rasenye kedai makan ni aku tak pernah pegi lagi sebelum ni.

Tiba2 ade la sorang minah ni dgn selambanya pegi kat aku & tanya kat mane aku order laksa ni.Kedai ni agak luas,ada banyak section & gerai2 kat dalam tu.Dia bukan setakat tanya dekat mana aku beli order malah ajak aku tunjuk gerai tu dekat mana.Dalam hati aku ni selambanya orang ni,dah la aku tak kenal dia pas tu dgn selambanya dia tarik aku ajak teman dia beli laksa tu.

Yela,dia bukannya kawan aku pun,terkejut gak aku waktu tu dgn kelakuan minah ni.Tapi aku ni jenis yg mudah berkawan & friendly,juga seorang yg agak sopan jadi aku pun takdela cakap ape then cuba bersikap ‘helpful’ terhadap minah ni.So aku pun ikut je rentak dia ni.

Dah beli laksa tu,kami pun makan la bersama2 laksa tu.Then dia nampak aku bawak kamera.Aku cakap la aku suka ambil gambar.Dia nampaknya sgt berminat dengan kamera tu.Dengan selambanya gak dia belek2 kamera & try ambil gambar.Lagaknya tu mcm seolah2 dia tu kawan lama aku je.Aku diamkan je & tengok je kelaku minah ni.

Then bila dah lepas makan tu kami pun jln2 ambil gambar bersama2.Aku ambil gambar dia,dia amik gambar aku.Tapi kami berdua ni sama2 tak reti sgt pun.Agak seksa la nak amik angle yg bagus,terkial2.Ade sekali tu sampai dah nak terjatuh sbb shoot kat tempat yg tinggi.Hahahaha…Sungguh memalukan je.

Tengah kami dok sibuk amik2 gamba tu tiba2 la muncul seorang pakcik dari jln yg dekat2 situ ,dia cam kesian tengok kami dok terkial2 amik gambar tu.Dia kemudiannya interview kami pasal kamera2 ni.Pakcik ni pun kebetulannya adalah seorang photographer.Kemudian dia pun ajar kami sikit2 cara amik gambar.Tengah dia dok ajar2 tu tiba2 aku dah terjaga dari tidur,so setakat tu jelah mimpi aku.

Tapi tula wonder gak apela maksud mimpi aku tu.Kedai yg aku makan dalam mimpi tu mmg aku rase aku belum pernah pegi & tengok lagi di mana2.Minah yg dalam mimpi tu pun bukannya kawan aku,aku tak kenal langsung & aku tak pernah tengok dia di mana2.

Dari gambarannya dia seorang yg tinggi, kurus & freehair.Seorang yg keletah & sgt banyak cakap & jenis yg agak selamba.Dia mcm akak la,lebih tua dari aku sikit.Pakcik yg dalam mimpi aku tu pun aku tak pernah jumpa & tak menyerupai sape2 yg aku kenal rasenye.Yg aku ingat dia cuma pakai t-shirt berkolar kaler putih.Entah la maybe setakat mainan tidur aku je kot.

Ohohohoho..aku rase sempena musim raya ni mmg sgt letih la nak memenuhi undangan open house semua orang.Aku select2 je la kot.Bayangkan jela,esok je dah ade 7 jemputan.Takkan nak kena kerat badan ni sampai 7 kot.Ari ahad pun boleh tahan,ade 5 undangan.Hajat di hati kalau boleh nak gi kesemuanya tapi kenalah berpijak di bumi yg nyata,memang tak sempat.Terpaksa pilih mana yg dekat & orang yg rumah dia aku wajib pegi je.Raya oh raye…ade 8 hari lagi bulan Syawal..

Bermula sesuatu yg baru..

2010-09-22T11:37:00.002+08:00

Orang kate sekiranya sesuatu yg ada pada kita telah berhenti @ hilang maka ketahuilah sesuatu yg baru juga pasti bermula.I’m just about to find out what had been lost in my life & the opposite of it,what has just begin.I’m ready for it..

Cerita Ramadhan & Syawal 8

2010-09-21T16:43:00.002+08:00

Salam Lebaran Dari Kejauhan

Sampai je kt Maluri on the way nak beli tiket,seorang yg aku sgt2 tak sangka2 akan telefon tiba2 menelefon aku.Aku agak tersentak bila tengok namanya kt skrin hp aku.Ada apakah2 ni,aku dah jadi risau pulak.Dalam masa yg sama aku serba salah nak angkat ke taknak angkat.Last2 aku angkat juga sebab takut ade hal emergency atau ape2 yg berlaku.

Dia cakap aku sgt sombong sekarang sebab dah lama tak bertanya khabar dia.Merungut dia kat aku.Aku cuma banyak dengar dia cakap je daripada aku bercakap,aku tak tahu nak cakap apeBukan aku taknak tanya khabar,tapi aku sgt risau sekiranya perbuatan aku tu bakal mengundang satu lagi masalah.Aku tak suka cari pasal & menimbulkan masalah kpd orang.

Sebenarnya aku rasa sgt sedih & bersalah selepas dia menelefon tu.Dia ajak datang rumah beraya,dia cakap pintu rumah dia sentiasa terbuka untuk aku,Aku iya2kan aje ape yg dia cakap tapi aku tahu aku memang tak dapat pegi ke rumah dia pun.So aku pun dah mintak maaf siap2 atas salah & silap aku sebab aku tahu aku takkan dapat berjumpa dia walau sebanyak mana pun aku rindu nak dengar dia berceloteh.Dia cakap dia dah maafkan walau ape jua kesalahan aku terhadap dia tanpa mengetahui aku ni bakal melakukan satu kesalahan terhadap dia.

Sangat2 mintak maaf,tiada daya untuk berbuat ape2.Maaf,aku tiada pilihan.Then aku terpaksa putuskan talian sebab aku nak beli tiket tren.Sepanjang di dalam tren tu aku berasa sebak je tapi aku cuma menahan.Sedih sebab terpaksa mengabaikan orang yg pernah berbuat baik pada aku.Aku masih kenangkan budi baik dia terhadap aku.M**** kalau ada rezeki suatu hari pasti kita akan pasti bertemu lagi.Luna tak pernah lupakan m****.Semoga m**** sentiasa sihat & gembira.Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin dari kejauhan.

Cerita Ramadhan & Syawal 5

2010-09-20T14:44:00.001+08:00

Perginya seorang beauty Queen

Hari raya yg ke 3,pagi2 lagi sudah dikejutkan dengan berita pembunuhan kejam Dato’ S seorang jutawan kosmetik.Kakak aku yg kecoh2 bagitau kt berita TV ada pasal pembunuhan Dato’ S.Oh my God,I don’t expect the mystery of her being missing end in the most tragic way.

Walaupun aku tak mengenali pun Dato S tu tapi aku sgt bersimpati dengan apa yg menimpanya dan berasa satu kehilangan kepada negara sebenarnya.Seorang lagi ahli perniagaan Melayu yg berjaya bergelar Jutawan sudah tiada.Suatu kehilangan besar bagi industri kosmetik.

Aku berasakan penjenayah tu sgt kejam,kenapa mahu membunuh org dgn cara yg begitu kejam.Dipukul sehingga mati & kemudian dibakar? Pembunuh seolah2 tiada sifat kemanusiaan.Bayangkanlah bagaimana beliau dan 3 yg lain menanggung seksaan sebelum menemui ajal.Pastinya sgt terseksa.Kejadian ini pula berlaku di bulan suci,bulan Ramadhan ketika beberapa hari je lagi umat Islam bakal menyambut Hari Raya Aidilfitri.Pastinya sgt sadis & tragis buat keluarga mangsa.

Keluarga langsung tidak dapat menatap jenazah arwah buat kali terakhir.Hari raya yg sepatutnya disambut gembira bertukar tragedi yg pasti takkan dilupakan sepanjang hayat.Pastinya ini suatu realiti yg sgt pahit untuk ditelan keluarga mangsa.Pembunuh seolah2 seperti tiada perasaan belas kasihan & hanya dibayangi sifat haloba & tamakkan wang ringgit.

Money is not everything.By hurting people you actually hurting yourself.Seorang professional & berpendidikan tinggi tapi tak boleh nampak kesan perbuatannya kepada diri sendiri,keluarga & masyarakat.Paling2 pembunuhan begini hukumannya ialah gantung sampai mati.Membiarkan perjalanan hidup yg masih panjang sebenarnya berakhir begitu saja.Nama yg buruk juga ditinggalkan.

Keluarga juga terpaksa menanggung malu dikenali sebagai saudara kepada pembunuh kejam.Bayangkan perasaan anak tertuduh apabila orang ramai hanya mengenalinya sebagai anak samseng & pembunuh kejam.Tidak dapat melihat anak membesar & bahagia bersama pasangan masing2.Banyak perkara yg pastinya mereka akan kehilangan dalam hidup mereka.

Nikmat kemewahan wang ringgit hanya dapat dikecapi buat sementara tapi keluarga tertuduh terpaksa menderita sepanjang hayat.What goes around comes around.Dia menyakiti anak orang lain tapi anaknya sendiri pasti lebih menderita.Hukum karma pasti berlaku.Berani buat beranilah tanggung!

Cerita Ramadhan & Syawal 3

2010-09-17T12:36:00.002+08:00

Hari menikmati juadah raya kegermaran aku sepuas2nya..

Ketika Syawal hampir menjelma,dalam hati aku berkata kenapa cepat sgt dah nak raya.Biarlah lambat lagi,aku belum bersedia lagi nak raya.Aku masih mahu menikmati bulan puasa.Aku sgt suka bulan puasa,ada sesuatu di bulan ini yg sgt istimewa.Suasananya adalah berbeza daripada bulan lain.

Seperti biasa di hari raya,aku bangun awal mandi sunat hari raya.Bersiap pakai baju & menikmati juadah raya bersama keluarga.Kemudiannya kami sekeluarga pergi sembahyang hari raya di surau berhampiran rumah aku.Tahun ni masih giliran abah mengimamkan solat sunat aidilfitri.Selesai solat kami sekeluarga menziarahi kubur arwah atuk & nenek sambil menyedekahkan bacaan al-Quran kepada mereka.Inilah rutin aku setiap kali raya.Suatu hari pun aku pasti akan mengikut jejak mereka di sana.

Balik ke rumah sepupu2 aku bersama suami &anak2 dtg beraya di rumah.Masanya utk memberi duit raya kpd anak2 sedara nih,anak2 sepupu aku pun dkira seperti anak sedara jugaklah.Diaorg pun panggil aku makcik.Kebetulan kakak aku beli kamera DSLR yg baru,ape lagi pulunlah aku mengambil gambar.Mengasah skill mengambil gambar nih,maklumlah dah ade beberapa org tok guru.Hahaha..Foto tu adalah satu kenangan bagi aku,jadi kita patut mengabadikan kenangan tu bersama2.

Kemudian aku pegi beraya ke rumah makcik aku,sebelah rumah je.Aku tak berapa gemar mkn kuih raya,yg aku banyak makan kerepek pisang je & ketupat2.Entah kenapa kepala aku sakit pulak di hari raya ni,jadi kemudiannya duduk saja baring kat rumah.

Petang tu mak ajak g rumah Tok Ngah kt Sg Baru,jadi gagahkan diri jugak la pergi.Ketika aku masih kanak2 setiap kali raya aku pasti akan mengayuh basikal ke rumah nenek di Sg Baru,hanya seberang jln rumah Tok Ngah je.Kini nenek pun dah tiada,hanya tinggal rumahnye je sbg kenangan tempat permainan aku ketika kecil.Teringat pula kpd arwah nenek aku, ketika hari raya dia pasti akan meyediakan tapai yg juga merupakan kegemaran aku.Sgt berjiwa org Banjar nih,or g Banjar setiap kali raya tapai adalah hidangan wajib.Dodol bukan hidangan wajib.

Arwah nenek sebelah abah pula hidangan wajib setiap kali raya adalah kuih lopeh yg merupakan kegemaran aku juga.Itu makanan tradisi famili setiap kali raya, tapi nampaknya mak pun tak menyambung tradisi ni.Aku lagilah memang sgt tak reti pun buat tapai & kuih lopeh ni.Mungkin satu hari aku patut belajar.Satu jenis kuih org Banjar yg aku sgt teringin belajar nak buat adalah ‘wadai kiping’.Sgt suka makan wadai ni.Dalam bhs org Banjar,wadai tu bermaksud kuih.

Kemudian,malamnya tu layan jelah anak2 sedara aku main bunga api & mercun.Aku pun tumpang main bunga ape sebatang dua. Esoknya pula nk bersiap sedia menyambut kunjungan 2 tetamu ke rumah.

Cerita Ramadhan & Syawal 2

2010-09-17T12:33:00.001+08:00

Popia..dimana kan ku cari ganti...

Esoknye,aku dah merancang ni nak pegi Bazar Ramadhan nyg dekat Sg Acheh,Png.Berangan2 nak beli popia lagi.I’m so damn craving for the food.Sg Acheh tu takdela dekat dgn rumah aku pun,dh masuk negeri Pulau Pinang dah.Situ je yg aku tahu Bazar Ramadhan yg besar sikit.Lagipun dah hari terakhir Ramadhan org pun dah tak byk sgt berjual2 makanan dah.Jadi aku kena pegi jauh sikit utk cari bazaar y byk pilihan sikit.Dekat pekan area rumah aku mmg tak banyak jenis makanan pun g dia jual.

Emak & kak long aku dah membebel,apela yg nak pegi jauh2 sgt.Nak cari ape sgt.Kat rumah pun byk makanan kate diaorg.Mmg la byk makanan kt rumah tapi popia goreng tak ade.Untuk pengetahuan la kan,aku ni adalah sejenis seorang yg kalau nk makan sesuatu tu,aku akan cari sampai dapat no matter what it takes.Nantilah aku cerita bagaimana pada suatu tahun semasa raya aku bersusah payah mencari kerang utk dibuat rendang.

Jadi aku pun naiklah motor dengan anak sedara aku si atiq tu ke bazaar di Sg Acheh tu.Saje ajak dia teman aku,dia nak saja ikut aku.Aku upah dia ayam percik.Hari ni pun menerima nasib yg sama juga.Sempat makan seketul gak,yg lain habis dimakan famili aku.Takkanlah aku nak begitu selfish sampai sorokkan kuih tu utk aku mkn sorang je.Takpelah,mungkin ade rezeki lagi mo mkan popia.Aku rase maybe aku jer yg patut belajar buat kuih tu kot.Huhu..

Cerita Ramadhan & Syawal 1

2010-09-17T12:28:00.000+08:00

Popia..Alahai Popia

Aku pulang ke kampung 2 hari sebelum hari raya,pada 29hb Ramadhan.Sudah 3 tahun rasenye aku tak naik bas pulang berhari raya.Tapi tahun ini pulang naik bas,tiket pun sudah beli awal2 lagi.Aku terasa malas nak memandu & meninggalkan cik silver tu kt KL je.Cik silver tu masih belum dihantar buat pemeriksaan,jadi aku cuma tak nak ada masalah je ketika perjalanan.

Sampai je kat Parit Buntar Abg Long & Kak Long jemput aku,si kecil Nawal Syifa tu pun ada.Si kecik tu kalau nampak aku apelagi,melekat dgn aku jela.Sangat manja dengan aku,kalau berjln tu tak nak lepas tgn aku langsung.Kemudian kami pegi Bazar Ramadhan di Bgn Serai.Si kecik tu pun tau je cari peluang,sempat pau aku minta belikan donat coklat yg dihias cantik tu.Aku cuma beli donut fav aku je kuih keria(donut ubi kayu).Huhuhu..

Tahu tak ape benda yg paling aku cari sebenarnya kat bazaar tu? Apelagi,mestilah popia goreng.Popia kt kl ni semua mmg tak sama rasenye dgn style popia area tmpt aku.Aku mmg sgt2 suka popia ni.Memang yg ni jelah idaman hati aku,makanan yg lain tu mmg aku tak berapa hairan.Dengan penuh kesungguhan & keterujaan mata aku meliar je mencari popia goreng yg sungguh menyelerakan ituAku rase mmg dh kepingin sgt nk mkn popia goreng yg sedap.Akhinrya dpt juga, aku pun belilah RM 2 popia tu bersamaan dgn 7 ketul.

Tapi disebabkan popia tu sgt sedap semasa berbuka tu juga habis ketujuh2 ketul tu.Aku Cuma sempat rase seketul je.Aku baru je berangan nk ulang2 mkn popia.Ayoyoyo..sejak bila la pulak famili aku ni suka mkn popia? Tak tau la plak den.Adoi laaa..Kuih lain berlambak2 lagi ada,tapi popia aku memang licin terus.Tapi dpt rase satu jadilah buat menghilangkan kerinduan nk mkn popia yg sedap.

F For FAITH..

2010-09-03T16:39:00.003+08:00

1. F for FAITH

2. F for FUN

3. F for FEARLESS

4. F for FIGHTER

5. F for FREEDOM

6. F for FRIEND

7. F for FAMILY

8. F for FAIR

9. F for FIRM

10. F for FOOTBALL

11. F for FRANKNESS

12. F for FOODIE

13. F for FRONT

14. F for FORMIDABLE

15. F for FOND

16. F for FLEXIBLE

Silaturrahim..

2010-08-12T11:36:00.001+08:00

Eratkanlah Silaturrahim sesama muslim.

Silaturrahim (kasih sayang) akan membawa kebahagiaan bagi seseorang. Allah memberikan kemudahan rezeki dan melanjutkan usia seseorang yang melakukanya. Sebagaimana sabda Rasulullah saw;

" Barangsiapa yang ingin murah rezeki dan dilanjutkan umur (usianya) hendaklah ia menghubungkan silaturrahim"

- Riwayat Al Bukhary).

Bila terjalinnya silaturrahim urusan yang berkaitan sesama ahli keluarga dan sesama muslim akan berjalan lancar, mudah dengan berkat silaturrahim yang berjalan. Bila lancar , semua urusan pekerjaan menjadi mudah dan lancar, maka umur tak akan sia-sia.Usia dan umur pun dapat dipergunakan dengan sesuatu yang bermanafaat., dan selama waktu hidupnya dapat dimanafaatkan dengan sesuatu amal perbuatan yang berguna. Itulah yang dinamakan panjang umur! Kerana hakikat umur panjang ialah bagi mereka yang banyak amal perbuatan yang baik, yakni mereka yang menmanfaatkan umurnya dengan kebaikan.

Allah melarang memutuskan silaturrahim sesama islam kecuali uzur
syar'i.

Meghubungkan silaturrahim ialah dengan jalan hormat menghormati sesama kita muslim seperti hormat kepada tamu, hormat kepada jiran dan menjalinkan persaudaraan serta bebaik-baik terhadap ahli keluarga, dengan mengadakan hubungan ziarah menziarahi dengan niat untuk berkasih mesra atau bersilaturrahim terutama antara sesama saudara sekturunan (keluarga serumpun).

Elakkan perbezaan kedudukan kaya miskin itu menjadikan hubungan yang menunjukkan kesombongan atau kehinaan terhadap antara satu dengan yang lain. Di mana perlu jika terdapat saudara atau jiran ynag memerlukn pertolongan atau bantuan atau nasihat hendaklah kita menghulurkan apa juga bantuan sekadar yang mampu, bagi membantu kesulitan atau pendritaan yang sedang dihadapinya. Kita hendaklah bertolak ansur dan saling memaafkan di atas sebarang kesilapan tindakan atau kelakuan yang boleh memutuskan hubungan kasih sayang antara sesama muslim yang semestinya bersaudara di sisi Allah swt.

Allah swt paling benci kepada mereka yang memutuskan silaturrahiam. Sebagaimana sabda Rasulullah saw;

"Dua orang yang Allah swt tidak akan melihatnya (dengan rahmat) di Hari Qiamat (kerana murkanya);
1. Orang yang memutuskan silaturrahim dan,
2. Orang yang jahat terhadap jirannya"

Oleh itu kita hendaklah kita adakan silaturrahim yang baik, dan sekiranya berjauhan adakanlah selalu hubungann dengan surat menyurat atau sekarang ini alat telkomunikasi seperti telefon, e-mail dan seumpamaya.

Firman Allah swt dalam suarh AN-Nisa': 1;

"Wahai umat manusia, hendaklah kamu sekalian bertaqwa kepada Allah, yang telah menjadikan kamu sekalian (berasal) dari satu bapa (Adam) yang kemudian dijadikannya pula pasangannya , dari kedua jenis kelamin iaitu maka berkembang biaklah manusia di muka bumi ini lelaki da perempuan. Maka hendklah kamu takut kepada Allah yang kamu minta-meminta dengan namaNya, demikian juga hendaklah kamu jaga tali persaudaraan (silaturrahim). Allah selalu waspada tehadap kamu sekalian"

Abul Laits berkata:

"Jika seorang itu dekat dengan kerabatnya maka hubungan kerabat itu berupa hidayah-hidayah dan ziyarah, jika tidak dapat membantu dengan harta, maka cukup dengan tenaga, jika jauh maka hubunginya dengan surat menyurat dan jika dapat mendatangi maka itu lebih utama. Ketahuilah bahawa silaturrahim itu mengandungi sepuluh keuntungan iaitu:

Mendapat keridhaan Allah s.w.t. sebab Allah s.w.t. menyuruh silaturrahim

Menggembirakan mereka kerana ada hadis yang mengatakan bahawa seutama-utama amal ialah menyenangkan orang mikmin

Kegembiraan malaikat kerana malaikat senang dengan silaturrahim

Mendapat pujian kaum muslimin

Menjengkelkan iblis laknatullah

Menambah umur

Menjadi berkat rezekinya

Menyenangkan orang-orang yang telah mati kerana ayah dan nenek-nenek itu senang jika anak cucunya bersilaturrahim

Memupuk rasa cinta di kalangan kekeluargaan sehingga suka membantu bila memerlukan bantuan mereka

Bertambahnya pahala jika ia mati sebab selalu diingati kepadanya jika telah mati dan mendoakan kerana kebaikannya

Anas r.a berkata: "Tiga macam orang yang akan berada di bawah naungan Allah s.w.t. pada hari kiamat iaitu:

1. Orang yang menyambung hubungan kekeluargaan diberkati umurnya dan dilapangkan kuburnya dan rezekinya

2. Wanita yang ditinggal mati oleh suaminya dan ditinggali anak-anak yatim lalu dipeliharanya sehingga kaya mereka atau mati

3. Orang yang membuat makanan lalu mengundang anak-anak yatim dan orang-orang miskin

Al-Hasan berkata: "Rasulullah s.a.w. bersabda: "Dua langkah manusia yang disukai Allah s.w.t. ialah:

1. Langkah menuju sembahyang fardhu dan

2. Langkah menuju silaturrahim kepada kerabat yang mahram .

Lima macam siapa yang melaziminya bertambah hasanatnya
bagaikan bukit yang besar dan dilapangkan rezekinya iaitu:

1. Siapa yang selalu sedekah sedikit atau banyak

2. Orang yang menghubungi kerabat

3. Orang yang selalu berjuang untuk menegakkan agama Allah s.w.t.

4. Orang yang selalu berwuduk dan tidak memboros penggunaan air

5. Orang yang tetap taat kepada kedua ibu bapanya

Semoga Allah menjadikan kita orang yang sentiasa berbuat baik dengan mengertakan hubungan silaturrahim sesama kita, ahli keluarga, jiran dan saudara sesama muslim seagama.

" Menghubungkan Silaturrahim " atau tali persaudaraan dan kekeluargaan. Silah = maknanya hubungan, Ar-Rahim maknanya pertalian manusia dari segi keturunan dan disebut juga kerabat atau keluarga.

Allah subhanahua ta’ala mewajibkan kepada kita semua untuk menghubungkan silaturrahim dan mengharamkan, memutuskannya dan menyuruh supaya sentiasa berbuat baik dan tolong-menolong dalam perkara-perkara kebaikan kepada semua manusia terutama kepada yang ada hubungan kekeluargaan ataupun kerabat .

Firman Allah di didalam surah An-Nisa’ ayat 36 :

Ertinya :

" Dan hendaklah kamu beribadat kepada Allah dan jangan kamu sekutukan dia dengan sesuatu pun jua dan hendaklah kamu berbuat baik kepada kedua ibu-bapa dan kaum kerabat dan anak-anak yatim dan orang-orang miskin dan jiran tetangga yang dekat dan jiran tetangga yang jauh dan rakan sejawat dan orang musafir yang terlantar dan juga hamba yang kamu miliki. Sesungguhnya Allah tidak suka kepada orang-orang yang sombong takbur dan membangga-banggakan diri "

Menghubungkan silaturrahim ialah berbuat baik kepada semua yang ada pertalian kekeluargaan di antara kita. Bersegeralah menolong dan membantu mereka jika mereka memerlukannya dan jagalah perasaan mereka dengan sikap lemah lembut. Juga cintailah mereka dan berilah nasihat dan tolonglah mereka dalam segala masalah yang sedang mereka hadapi.

Dahulukanlah mereka dalam setiap perbuatan yang baik seperti dalam pemberian sedeqah, hidayah - dari orang lain di atas dasar silaturrahim. Sabda nabi s.a.w yang maksudnya :

" Sedeqah kepada orang miskin mendapat pahala sedeqah sahaja sedangkan kepada yang ada hubungan keluarga mendapat dua pahala iaitu pahala sedeqah dan pahala menghubungkan silaturrahim ".

Menjadi kewajipan setiap muslim untuk berlaku baik dan mengambil berat kepada semua yang ada hubungan kekeluargaan & dan inilah yang disebut
menghubungkan silaturrahim sama ada hubungan pertalian darah atau pernikahan umpama kelurga sebelah isteri atau suami. Menghubungkan silaturrahim ini diutamakan kepada keluarga yang ada keretakan. Hubungkanlah silaturrahim dengan mereka & lupakan kebencian dan padamkan api dendam & berlaku baik dan tunjukkan kasih sayang kepada mereka.

Allah subhanahua ta'ala berfirman di dalam surah Fussilat ayat 34
Ertinya :

" Dan tidaklah sama perbuatan yang baik dan perbuatan yang jahat tolaklah (kejahatan yang ditujukan kepadamu) dengan cara yang lebih baik apabila engkau berlaku yang demikian maka orang yang merasa permusuhan terhadapmu dengan serta merta akan menjadi seolah-olah seorang sahabat karib."

Telah diriwayatkan di dalam hadis nabi s.a.w. , seorang sahabat bertanya kepada nabi (s.a.w.) : " Sesungguhnya saya mempunyai keluarga & saya menghubungkan silaturrahim dengan mereka tetapi mereka memutuskannya & saya berbuat baik kepada mereka tetapi mereka berbuat jahat kepada saya & saya memaafkan mereka tetapi mereka berlaku zalim terhadap saya. Bolehkah saya buat sebagaimana yang mereka buat ". Sabda nabi s.a.w. Tidak boleh dan jika kamu buat yang demikian bererti kamu juga telah memutuskan silaturrahim dengan mereka. Tetapi bersikap mulialah terhadap mereka dan teruskanlah menghubungkan silaturrahim dengan mereka kerana sesungguhnya pertolongan Allah sentiasa bersama kamu selagi kamu berbuat yang demikian.

Hubungkanlah silaturrahim dan jangan sekali-kali memutuskannya bersabarlah terhadap perbuatan yang menyakitkan & berbuat baiklah kepada yang berbuat jahat kepada kamu & bergaullah bersama mereka dengan akhlak yang mulia semoga kita semua beroleh kemenangan dan kebahagiaan di dunia dan di akhirat.

My dilemma..

2010-08-12T11:17:00.001+08:00

Satu perkara yg aku tak suka buat ialah ‘break someone’s heart’.Tapi kadang2 terpaksa dilakukan demi kebaikan semua pihak.aku seorang yg realistic.Sempena bulan Ramadhan yg mulia ni aku rasa baik aku berterus terang saje drpd mendiamkan diri saje & memberi harapan palsu pada org.

Tapi bagaimana mahu menerangkan,itu yg aku sgt bingung.Aku takut orang tak faham.Sepanjang hidup aku ni aku kadang2 menghadapi masalah menyampaikan mesej yg aku nk cuba sampaikan pada orang.Kadang2 mesej tu tak sampai & orang tak faham.Itu yg kadang2 menimbulkan masalah.Aku ni bukanlah seorang yg begitu pandai berkata2.Aku sebenarnya seorang yg tak banyak cakap.

Ya,aku menghargai orang sayangkan aku tapi sekiranya jarak & jurang terlalu jauh sukar kan? In the end aku gak yg akan bersama2 patah hati.Aku dah tak larat nak patah2 hati lagi.Even sekali dua rasenye pun amat teruk inikan pula berkali2.Tapi aku tak boleh nk buat apa kalau orang nak suka aku.Bukannya aku yg menggoda org,not my style macam tu.Aku cuma menjadi diri aku.Tapi itulah masalahnya selalunya org yg suka2 aku tu aku selalu tak dpt bersama dgn dia,terlalu banyak halangan.Entahlah aku pun tak tahu apa masalah dengan diri aku ni..

Kadang2 aku rasa aku betul2 dah nak jatuh cinta lagi tapi bila lama2 pasti akan ada suatu yg tak kena.I dunno why this happen to me.Sangat susah nk bertemu dgn org yg sesuai dgn aku.Ntahlah.. I don’t have the answer.Kadang2 aku terpaksa tinggalakan jer org yg aku suka gak di tgh jalan.I'm so sorry,i don mean to hurt you..

Tomorow can be too late..

2010-07-22T17:04:00.000+08:00

If you're mad with someone , and nobody's there to fix the situation... You fix it . Maybe today, that person still wants to be your friend . And if u don't, tomorrow can be too late .

If you're in love with somebody , but that person doesn't know... tell her/him. Maybe today, that person is also in love with you . And if you don't say it, tomorrow can be too late .

If you still love a person that you think has forgotten you... tell her/him. Maybe that person has always loved you. And if you don't tell her/him today , tomorrow can be too late.

If you need a hug of a friend... ask her/him for it. Maybe they need it more than you do. And if you don't ask for it today, tomorrow can be too late.

If you really have friends who you appreciate... tell them. Maybe they appreciate you as well. That if you don't and they leave or go far away today , tomorrow can be too late.

If you love your parents, and never had the chance to show them... do it . Maybe you have them there to show them how you feel. That if you don't and they leave today , and then tomorrow can be too late.

Luna says: Sometimes I just dunno whether is to late or not to late.But there is a say,better late than never”. After all, it is all depends on yourselves.
Have I ever been mad at somebody? Yes, of course I did. Everyone does.. Usually, if
I find it still can be fix I will try fix it myself. In the end,what did you got by hating somebody? You heart would not feel good.

I always tell everyone that I love,I love them.But for some cases,even if I told them,it’s not working.Maybe I’m too late..It’s ok..

I can say myself,I have my own ego.Even if I need a hug from a friend,usually I will not ask for it.That’s really a rare case for me.But if my friend ask for hug I’m so glad to hug them.

I always being appreciative to my friends. This one I always practice.To me,friends are the gift in your life.No friend,life will be bored,so dull.I always like to have many friends around me.

I do show my love to my parents in my own way..I always will..

Bola talk lagi..

2010-07-16T17:46:00.000+08:00

Kegembiraan melihat pasukan pilihan aku,Sepanyol sebagai juara Piala Dunia masih terasa.Ramai orang hairan kan kenapa la aku ni minat sangat tengok bola,terutama kawan2 perempuan aku la.Aku meminati bola sepak sejak aku sekolah rendah lagi.Aku bukan sahaja minat menonton malah membaca tentang dunia bola sepak.

Suatu ketika dulu semasa aku masih di sekolah rendah aku sangat meminati pasukan negeri aku iaitu,Perak.Aku tahu semua nama pemain dalam pasukan.Aku siap ada buku scrap yg ada gambar semua pemain Perak.Kemudian aku ada jahit sendiri mini bendera negeri Perak dan memiliki cap pasukan negeri Perak.Bayangkanlah aku begitu meminati pasukan Perak & mengaguminya.Dalam tahun 90an sebenarnya ramai pemain Perak mewakili pasukan kebangsaaan.Antaranya Azizol Abu Hanifah,pemain kebangsaan yg sgt popular suatu ketika dulu.Pada masa tu Perak mempunyai ramai pemain berbakat & antara pasukan yang kuat dalam Liga Perdana.

Tetapi bayangkanlah perasaan seorang penyokong amat setia ni bila terjadinya tragedi dalam dunia bola sepak Malaysia.Dalam tahun awal 90an negara dihebohkan dengan kes ‘match fixing scandal’ melibatkan ramai pengadil dan pemain.Diantaranya termasuklah pemain2 dalam skuad negeri Perak.Pemain2 kesayangan & pujaan aku.Aku rasa sangat sangat kecewa dan sedih.Pemain yg selama ni aku sanjung & minati ( tak perlulah aku sebutkan nama mereka) rupanya mudah dibeli dan langsung tak pentingkan untuk menjaga prestij permainan itu sendiri.

Berasa sangat kecewa,selepas tu langsung dah aku tak ambil peduli pasal bola sepak lagi.Semasa di sekolah menengah memang aku tak ambil tahu pun pasal dunia bola sepak. Even,masa tahun 1998 final Piala Dunia antara Brazil & Perancis pun aku tak tengok dan tak ambil peduli Sehinggalah pada tahun 2002,semasa aku study di uia,minat aku kepada bola sepak kembali berputik..

Minat tu kembali tahu disebabkan apa? Kerana aku mempunyai dua kawan baik yg sgt2 hantu bola.Seorang meminati pasukan Itali seorang lagi minat pasukan England.Kelab pula sorang suka Kelab Itali, AC Milan sorang lagi suka Manchester United,kelab England.Aku pula suka team Real Madrid,Sepanyol. Bukan sikit2 suka bola kawan2 aku tu,lagi advance dari aku.Sebutlah semua pemain bola semua dia tau & segala info tentang dunia bola pun.Dan mereka tu bukannya lelaki tapi perempuan.

Jadi disebabkan ada kawan baik begini,minat aku kepada bola sepak tu pun datang kembali.Tapi kali ni bukan lagi kepada bola sepak tempatan tetapi kepada bola sepak antarabangsa.Mau taknya,hari2 aku jumpa best friend aku tu hari2 la juga dia bercerita pasal bola dan sebagainya.Bukan dia berdua je,malah kawan2 aku yg lain pun ada juga yg minat.Masing2 dengan team pilihan masing2.

Finally..the dreams of Spain's fan all over the world comes true..

2010-07-12T15:42:00.000+08:00

Like any other Spain's fan all around the world also I still can almost believe my eyes Spain lift this 2010 World Cup trophy.All of my life,since I was child I used to see Brazil,Italy,Germany & Argentina won the WC but never the Spain.This is just miracle.I thought i will be waited whole of my life if Spain is lucky enough to win the world championship.

For almost of 8 years my patient was just being tested,but I still keep faith to the La Roja squad.But not until today,today i've seen in the big screen Andres Iniesta netted the goal that Spain deserve for all of their life.Their hard work has been paid off.Thanks to Cesc Fabregas who is the architect of the goal.They give everything to win the championship.I can see their struggle to create chances as much as possible.The battle for the ball is very challenging.The Duch side never let them play comfortably.

Lucky for Spain they have the world most finest goalkeeper,Iker Casillas.He did whatever it takes to stop the ball.If hands is not enough,his feet will be just fine.That was Casillas and I really salute him.He will be the goalkeeper whom i respected for all of my life.The excellent saver & also the leader of the team.He is the captain of the European Champion & World Cup Champion.

This win will silent the critics.Every time,people will always just say,Spain is just lucky.But do you think can you will be lucky enough to win the EURO 2008 & another 2 more years the World Cup? This is not just about lucky,this is all about the skill & hard works.Spain is the world no 1 now.They are the best among the best.Breaking the Brazil's domination in the world of football.

And for this i would like to congratulate Vincente Del Bosque's team.The best team win,justice is done.

Pencarian rumput yg paling cantik..

2010-07-09T16:34:00.000+08:00

Pada suatu pagi di satu sekolah menengah, ada seorang pelajar bertanya
pada seorang guru yang sedang mengajar. Ketika itu, guru tersebut sedang
menyentuh mengenai kasih dan sayang secara am. Dialog di antara pelajar
dan guru tersebut berbunyi begini :

Pelajar : Cikgu, macam mana kita nak pilih seseorang yang terbaik
sebagai orang paling kita sayang?. Macam mana juga kasih sayang itu nak
berkekalan?

Cikgu : Oh, awak nak tahu ke?.Emmm...baiklah, sekarang kamu buat apa
yang saya suruh. Ikut je ye...mungkin kamu akan dapat apa jawapannya.

Pelajar : Baiklah...apa yang saya harus buat?

Cikgu : Kamu pergi ke padang sekolah yang berada di luar kelas sekarang
juga. Kamu berjalan di atas rumput di situ dan sambil memandang rumput
di depan kamu, pilih mana yang PALING cantik tanpa menoleh ke belakang
lagi walaupun sekali. Dan kamu petiklah rumput yang PALING cantik yang
berada di depan kamu tersebut dan selepas itu bawa balik ke kelas.

Pelajar : Ok. Saya pergi sekarang dan buat apa yang cikgu suruh.

Apabila pelajar tersebut balik semula ke kelas, tiada pun rumput yang
berada di tangannya. Maka cikgu pun bertanya kepada pelajar tersebut.

Cikgu : Mana rumput yang cikgu suruh petik?

Pelajar : Oh, tadi saya berjalan di atas rumput dan sambil memandang
rumput yang berada di situ, saya carilah rumput yang paling cantik.
Memang ada banyak yang cantik tapi cikgu kata petik yang paling cantik
maka saya pun terus berjalan ke depan sambil mencari yang paling cantik
tanpa menoleh ke belakang lagi. Tapi sampai di penghujung padang , saya
tak jumpa pun yang paling cantik. Mungkin ada di antara yang di belakang
saya sebelum itu tapi dah cikgu cakap tak boleh menoleh ke belakang
semula, jadi tiadalah rumput yang saya boleh petik.

Cikgu : Ya, itulah jawapannya. Maknanya, apabila kita telah berjumpa
dengan seseorang yang kita sayang, janganlah kita hendak mencari lagi
yang lebih baik daripada itu. Kita patut hargai orang yang berada di
depan kita sebaik-baiknya. Janganlah kita menoleh ke belakang lagi
kerana yang berlaku tetap dah berlaku. Dan semoga yang berlalu tidak
lagi berulang. Jika kita berselisih faham dengan orang yang kita sayang
itu, kita boleh perbetulkan keadaan dan cuba teruskan perhubungan
tersebut walaupun banyak perkara yang menggugat perhubungan tersebut.
Dan ingatlah orang yang kita sayang itulah kita jumpa paling cantik dan
paling baik pada MULAnya walaupun nak ikutkan banyak lagi yang cantik
dan baik seperti rumput tadi. KECUALILAH jika perhubungan tersebut tak
boleh diselamatkan lagi, maka barulah kita mulakan sekali lagi. Maka
sayangilah orang yang berada di depan kita dengan tulus dan ikhlas.

Luna: rumput?? sound really familiar to me..ahahaha..the grass may look GREEN on the other side & may not be on the other side..maybe you guys don't understand what i trying to convey but never mind..

Viva Esapana!!!!

2010-07-08T17:09:00.000+08:00

Tak dapat nak digambarkan perasaan aku pagi tadi.Rasa happy & berpuas hati.Semua orang,kiri kanan aku asyik melaungkan je Jerman akan menang ke atas Sepanyol masa game seaprukh akhir WC.Aku dh biasa dengan semua ni.Spain selalu dianggap pasukan under achiever,pasukan underdog,pasukan yg bukan favourite utk memenangi Piala Dunia.

Aku meminati team Spain sejak WC 2002 yg diadakan di Korea & Japan.Antara semua pasukan yg bermain aku mmg paling tertarik pada permainan Spain.Bukan sbb suka pada player2 tertentu je,tapi suka pada keseluruhan skuad.Masa tu aku tengok Spain main sgt bersungguh2 walaupun dianggap pasukan underdog,itu yg buat aku agak kagum.Cumanya nasib selalu saje tak menyebelahi Spain,kalah pada penentuan penalty dgn Korea.

I really admire their forward at that time Raul Gonzalez & his best friend,Fernando Morientes.Raul was very sharp with his feet. Sejak itu pasukan yg aku minati adalah Sepanyol je,tak pernah berubah.You know, I’m a very loyal person,so meaning I’m a loyal fan too.Tak kisahlah walau org kutuk Sepanyol ke ape,diaorang tetap menjdi my fav.

Ya..orang lebih cenderung nk memilih gergasi2 bola sepak seperti Itali,Brazil,Perancis,England sbg pasukan fav tp aku akan tetap setia dgn Sepanyol.Sepanjang hidup aku,aku berharap at least sekali aku berjaya melihat Spain jadi juara dunia.Aku telah berjaya tengok Spain jadi Juara Eropah tahun 2008,sekarang biarlah at least sekali dalam hidup aku boleh tengok Spain menang World Cup.Barulah puas hati.

Walaupun Raul dan kawan2 yg seangkatan dengannya dah tak bermain lagi di peringkat antarabangsa tapi biarlah generasi pelapis Spain yang baru ni meneruskan legasi permainan cantik mereka tu.Cuma tinggal 2 org je dari skuad 2002 yg masih berada dalam skuad kebangsaan Sepanyol iaitu Iker Casillas & Carles Puyol.Puyol pun dah nk bersara selepas WC ni.Iker Casillas telah dipilih untuk menggantikan tempat Raul sebagai kapten.Masa aku tengok Casillas mula2 main dulu,dia sangat muda belia.Dia cuma menjadi goal keeper simpanan je.Yelah Casillas muda setahun dari aku,tahun 2002 aku baru umur 22 tahun,tentulah dia pun baru berusia 21 tahun ketika tu.Sekarang sudah menjadi kapten menggantikan tempat lagenda Spain,Raul Gonzalez.Sangat mengagumkan

Apapun aku harap Spain akan terus mara ke hadapan merentasi segala kemungkinan & akan memberikan nama baru kepada Juara Piala Dunia.Sekurang-kurangnya berjaya membuat peminat satu dunianya bergembira meraikan sesuatu.Viva Espana!!

Air di dalam balang perlu diisi dari hari ke hari..

2010-03-20T07:22:00.000+08:00

Semakin lama aku rasa setiap hari perlu ade pengisian.Jangan biarkan hari berlalu begitu saja tanpa sesuatu yg diisi dalam jiwa anda.

Orang yang berjaya adalah minda & hatinya sentiasa terbuka,boleh menerima sebarang kritikan dan menjadikannya sebagai suatu driving force yg membantu dia lebih maju.Banyak orang lebih dipengaruhi emosi daripada kebijaksanaan dan logika.

Setiap manusia itu tidak sempurna,ade kekurangan dan kelemahan.Kadang2 kita tidak dapat melihat kelemahan & kekurangan diri sendiri.Hanya orang lain yang boleh melihatnya.Jadi jgn tolak terus sebarang kritikan,tapis dulu tengok baik & buruknya.Orang yg berjaya adalah org tidak cepat melatah.

Sekirannya anda tidak mendapat sokongan daripada orang yg rapat dengan anda,contohnya ahli keluarga sendiri carilah dari sumber yg lain.Jgan biarkan ianya melemahkan anda.Jalan ke hadapan sedikit & bukannya sekadar melihat di sekeliling anda sahaja.Minda harus sentiasa positif.

Kalau sesuatu perkara tu rase betul2 menganngu ignore jelah.Buat ape fikir yg susah2,baik fikir yg mudah je.Letihlah kalau terlalu serius sgt.

Stone By Stone

2010-01-27T16:30:00.000+08:00

I have a wall you cannot see
Because it's deep inside of me
it blocks my heart on every side
And helps emotions there to hide.

You can't reach in,
I can't reach out,
You wonder what it's all about.
The wall I built that you can't see
Results from insecurity.
Each time my tender heart was hurt
The scars within grew worse and worse.
So stone by stone,
I built a wall,
That is now so thick it will not fall.
Please understand that it's not you
Continue trying to break through.
I want so much to show my self
And love from you will really help
So bit by bit,
Chip at my wall,
Till stone by stone it starts to fall.
I know the process will be slow
It's never easy to let go
Of hurts and failures long ingrained,
Upon one's heart from years of pain.

I'm so afraid
To let you in;
I know I might get hurt again.

I try so hard to break the wall,
But seem to get nowhere at all.
For stone upon each stone I've stacked,
And left between them not a crack.

The only way to make it fall,
Is imperfections in the wall.
I did the best I could to build
A perfect wall, but there are still
A few flaws which are the key
To breaking threw the wall to me.

Please use each flaw
To cause a crack
To knock a stone off the stack.
For just as stone by stone it was laid
With every hurt and every pain,

So stone by stone the wall will break
As love replaces every ache.
Please be the one
Who cares enough
To find the flaws, no matter what.

written by Rachel Bently

when a girl
builds wall around her
it's not because
she avoid a man
or protect herself
... .
she does it
to find someone
who would be man enough
to break those walls
just to be with her..

Luna: I just wondering who's the man who are man enough to break my wall.

Bukan senang nak jadi kawan yg baik..

2010-01-22T12:21:00.000+08:00

Bukan senang kan utk menjadi kawan yg baik? Kadang2 aku ade menegur kawan2 aku kalau aku rase diaorang akan mengikut haluan yang salah.Aku bukan seorang yg suka cakap banyak,juga tak suka cakap banyak kali.

Sekali aku bercakap tu maknanya mesti ade sesuatu yg nak aku sampaikan dan aku anggap benda tu penting.Tiada kepentingan untuk aku pun kalau aku bercakap atau tak bercakap.Tak ade ape2 yg boleh aku dapat.Dapat duit ke,nasihat2 org tu?Atau kalau nasihat org tu,org nk bg hadiah menimbun cam bukit ke?Dpt sebijik kete suzuki swift ke? Hakikatnya ape yg aku dpt,satu ape pun tak dapat.Ucapan terima kasih pun silap2 tak dapat.kena marah balik adelah jugak kadang2.

I got nothing & maybe facing a consequence of being hated by my friends.Cos I’m saying something that they don’t like to hear.But I can see something wrong,I just want to wake my friends up.I want them to see the reality.

I’m asking you,do you feel happy to see your friends fall into drain or I may say committing a self destruction? That’s only how I feel.Just that..

But facing a rejection from my friends kind of making me hurt sometimes.I know it is something that related to ego thingy.Sometimes you just don’t like people criticize you,isn’t it? You think you know yourself very well.But human are not perfect,you got your own flaws.

However,I’m a practical person.Sometimes people may like what we say and sometimes they don’t.That’s life.I just say what I suppose to say,if you don’t like it,it is up to you.In life we have a choice.To listen or not to listen.

Sometimes I’m quite down if my friends chose not to listen.And when I’m down I just keep silent.I never talk about that matter again.In my mind I just think,maybe that person should learned his/her lesson first before he/she came into his/her own consciousness. Experiences are the best teacher perhaps. You learned about the right from the wrong.

Nothing I can do. Better I take care my own business only. You all are grown adult already rite? I’m not referring this to particular friends only but to all of my friends. Maybe I should just shut up.

Adab bersahabat

2010-01-20T16:37:00.000+08:00

1- Mengutamakan kawan lebih daripada diri sendiri

2- Menyimpan rahsia sahabat

3- Memberitahu pujian orang kepada sahabat

4- Tidak memberitahu celaan orang kepada sahabatnya

5- Memberi perhatian yang sungguh2 apabila dia bercakap

6- Jangan berbantah2 & berbalah2

7- Memanggil nama sahabat dengan nama yang disukainya

8- Menghargai dirinya

9- Jangan ingat kesalahannya tetapi ingatlah kebaikannya

10- Sentiasa memaafkan sahabat

11- Mendoakan sahabatnya

12- Jalinkan persahabatan hingga ke akhir hayat

13- Jangan memaksa kawan dengan beban

14- Selalu memberi salam

15- Melapangkan tempat duduk

16- Memberikan pertolongan tanpa diminta

17- Memberi nasihat terhadap kesalahan & kelalaiannya

18- Tidak mengungkit atau menyebut2 kesalahannya yang pernah dilakukan terhadap kita

19- Sentiasa baik sangka terhadapnya dengan memandang positif terhadap sikapnya

20- Berkasih sayang dengannya.Menjalinkan kasih sayang itu hingga ke akhir hayat.

21- Berkongsi kegembiraan dan kesedihan dengannya.

22- Berterima kasih di atas kebaikan sahabat terhadap kita.

Luna says: Inilah yg dapat dikongsi dengan readers semua.Aku cuba untuk menjadi kawan yg baik dengan adab2 ni sebagai panduan.Mencuba setakat yg termampu.Maaf,kadang2 sy pun ade kelemahan sendiri.

When December end..

2009-12-31T16:47:00.000+08:00

Bulan Disember pun sudah hampir berakhir.Tahun 2009 akan menutup tirainya.Disember adalah bulan yang aku gemari sebab aku dilahirkan di dalam bulan ni,lagipun bulan ni adalah penutup.Mcm ala2 closing ceremonylah kiranya kan.

Birthday aku tahun ni takdelah aku organize bday party,no budget for this year.Too many bills to be paid.Aku just celebrate dgn cara aku yg tersendiri jelah,eating ice cream with my dear friends..Yummy.. surprisingly my friends did some of sweet things in which I really appreciate.Pagi2 lagi kwn lama aku si hanizaida tu dah call wish happy birthday.Tak sangka dia ingat lak birthday aku.It really cheer me up.I feel so good.Hani mmg tak pernah lupakan aku.Kadang2 aku jer rase cam tak bagus sbb dia jer yg rajin contact aku dari aku contact dia.

Si liza pulak masa pagi2 tu soh aku bukan radio yg on9 tu.Beria2 betul nih.Heran la gak aku kan.Aku mmg buka tp takde bunyi la plak.Masalah teknikal ape la plak kan.So aku bgtaulah dia,takde bunyi & aku tak dpt dgr pun.Ohh rupanye dia ade wat ucapan hepi birthday & ade tujukan lagu utk aku.Dia siap rakam lagi.So sweet..Lagu Bintang Kehidupan lak tu.my fav song.Thank you so much I really appreciate it..Liza,aku mmg tak sangka ko akan wat mcm ni.muehehehe..

Then another hani lak tepon,wish me hepi besday dgn suara ceria dia tu.Gelak2 je sgt ceria.Actually I kind of miss that laughter.Dia dulu pernah kate boleh jer sponsor kek blueberry masa bday aku nnti,so aku pun tuntut la janji tu.Miahaha..Aku mmg sgt suka kek blueberry.Tapi hani dear,bie sempat rase sket je kek tu sbb dah terkocoh2 nk balik,bos sudah panggil.Timasih kt hani & Kak Ana sbb belikan kek tu.Timasih gak sbb tlg organize my bday party & jaja sekali.

Celebration belum berakhir kt situ je,then ade piknik2 kt sg congkak.Jaja cyg,timakasih lah utk hadiah baju & tepung gomak tu.Muahahaha..Belum sempat aku letak barang lg sudah ditepung tawar.Habis kotor seluar bersih aku.Tp dah tak boleh buat ape.Sumer pun dah jd mcm giler tepung ari tu.Sepatutnya sy bawak tepung sy sendiri ari 2,so bolehlah sy balas dendam balik.Tp ade ke birthday girl sndiri yg bwk tepung.Bunyinye mcm nk mentepungkan diri sendiri la plak.

Timasih sumer kwn2 yg dtg sekali celebrate besday sy.Tak sangka ade gak org ingat kat aku.I’m so touch..HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010..

Hope to start this new year with a bang:D

Is This Love?

2009-12-30T14:56:00.000+08:00

How do you know when you've found your soulmate?

One of the most common questions asked is "How do you know if it is really love?" Well, as you can imagine, this also happens to be one of the most difficult questions to answer! Love is such a strange, wonderful thing that nobody really has codified what it is yet. And to further complicate matters, there are so many different kinds of love: the love you feel for a friend, a family member, a sport or even a pet. This is such a crazy emotion that there is absolutely no way that I can definitively answer how you know it is love? but I am going to give it a try!

Now, in order to find out if you love someone, the basic place to start would be to ask yourself, do you want to be with them? If the answer to that question is no, then it really can't be love. When you love someone, you want to be with them. Not just be with them, but share everything with them. You have a great day at work and want to rush home and tell them every wonderful thing that has happened. You feel excited at the prospect of just being in their company, just being close to them isn't enough, you want to be a part of them, a part of their life forever. You can't stand the thought of being away from them yet, when you are, you still feel that ever-present bond that ties you together wherever you go. You can almost feel what they are feeling. You feel like, with a little bit of effort, you can see what they are seeing and think what they are thinking. That to me is love.

Now, on the other side of the spectrum, there are a host of emotions that people confuse with love. One of the most common is lust. There is a difference between wanting to sleep with someone and wanting to spend the rest of your life with someone.

Being overly dependent on the other person is also not a part of love. Some people fall into the trap of thinking they love someone just because they are afraid to be alone. They have become dependent on the other person for so much that they don't know how to make it on their own, or they would much rather be with someone than no-one.

This leads to the old cliché, in order to love someone else, you must first learn to love yourself. Well, we've all heard that before, but what does it really mean? It means that you have to be confident in your own ability and your own judgement. You really have to like yourself and know what you have to offer another person. There is no way that you can love another person if you are so stuck in your own hang-ups that you bow down and propitiate to the other person. That is, you do anything they ask and agree with everything they say out of fear that they will love you less because you don't do those things.

Basically, the question of whether or not you are in love with someone is pretty cut and dry: you either are or you aren't? and deep down, you know the answer. You just have to trust yourself to recognize it.

Quoted from an article..

More Quizzes..

2009-09-15T13:39:00.000+08:00

1. Do you like chinese food?
Depends on what kind of food.Of course I’m not gonna like bak kut teh..

2. How big is your bed?
Js enough space for me to sleep laaa..

3. Is your room clean?
Hahahaha..dunno 2 describe,u see by yourself laa..
4. Laptop or Desktop computer?
Both also can..

5. Favorite comedian?
Erkkk..don hv d answer till now..

6. Do you smoke?
No..

7. Does anyone like you?
Don’t ask me,ask people laaa..

8. Whats the sexiest thing about Condoleeza Rice?
Sorry,I can’t see anything sexy about her.

10. Sleep with or without clothes on?
With cloth..

11. Who sleeps with you every night?
Usually no one,I sleep alone..
12. Do long distance relationships work?
It never works to me.Too bad..

13. How many times have you been pulled over by the police?
Never..

14. Pancakes or French Toast?
Pancake,perhaps..

15. Do you like coffee?
Not really..

16. How do you like your eggs?
Telur mata kerbau

17. Do you believe in astrology?
Not really..

18. Last person you talked to on the phone?
Boy..

19. Last person on your missed call list?
Jaja

20. What was the last text message you received?
Aha nampaknya cmtu la.Sori ek n tengs sbb invite.

21. McDonalds or Burger King?
McD

22. Number of pillows?
3

23. Last thing you ate?
Rice + Chicken Soup

24. Last thing you bought?
A sandal

25. What are you listening to right now?
Ayat2 Cinta-Rossa

26. Pick a lyric?
Hey Ladies-Rossa

27. What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwich?
Hurmm..i don eat like tis..

28. Can you play pool?
Dunno how 2 play..

29. Do you know how to swim?
Yes..

30. Favorite ice cream?
Cornetto

31. Do you like maps?
To be frank I really having difficulty reading maps..

32. Tell me a random fact:
Random fact of what?????

33. Ever had a hard on at work?
Yepp..sometimes

34. Ever attend a theme party?
Yes..

35. Ever do a keg stand?
Wat’s tis???
36. Craziest place you've slept after a night of drinking?
I don’t drink..

37. What is your favorite season?
Spring..

38. What is the first music video you ever saw?
I can’t remember,next question pls..

39. Pick a movie quote:
You jump I jump-Titanic :)) =))

40. Favorite quote:
erkk..I think I already answer this question..

41. What is your favorite hangout?
My fav?? Midvalley

42. Best friend's name?
Midah,Bad,Ifa,Liza,Boy,& Ria

43. How long have you known them?
The time is different for each person.

44. Last time you laughed at something stupid?
Last nite,about so called ‘rebonding’ thing.

45. What time did you wake up this morning?
7.40 a.m

46. Wake up next to anyone?
Not at tis moment.Grrr..

47. Best thing about winter?
I never experience winter,sorry..

48. Name a couple of favorite colors:
Pink,blue,purple & green.

49. How old are you?
=100-62 + 10

50. What month is your birthday in?
The last one,December

51. Do you think pirates are cool or overrated?
Cool? I think it might be scarry laa…aiyooo..

52. Favorite Dave Matthews Band song (if you have one?)
I’m not listening to his song,sorry..

53. What are you doing this weekend?
Celebrating Eid with my family & friends.

54. Who will take this survey?
Ila,ned & kui

Quiz..Quiz..

2009-09-14T11:35:00.000+08:00

My dear,ria..

As your request,i completed this quiz.Hope you'll be satisfied.

1.Apekah pengangkutan yang anda gemari untuk bercuti?

Tak kisahlah ape2,kete,bas,ketapi,flight.Yg sesuai mengikut keadaanlah..

2. Dalam seminggu, berapa kali anda kerap lupa tentang sesuatu?

Banyak kali gak la,skang sy mcm semakin pelupa je.huhu

3. Harijadi siapa kah yang anda mampu ingat?

Skang dh selalu lupa,so js wat reminder kt hp jela stiap kali.Besday sendiri pun leh lupa kadang2.tp selalunya sy akan ingat besday org yg rapat dgn sy,my family members,my bestie,my bf (sekiranya sy ade ke bf la :)) )

4. Boleh berikan sebab?

Mereka orang tersyg sy,so mesti la sy ingat.

5. Jika diberi peluang mengundurkan masa, adakah anda akan cuba memperbetulkan keadaan?

Ya....

6. Kenapa?

Mo tebus kesilapan yg telah sy wat

7. Secara kiraan kasar, berapa umur kah usia blog anda?

Dalam 10 bulan gitu laa..

8. Siapakah rakan blog yang anda mahu mereka buat tag ni?

Ila,ned & kui..Sila jawab ar :)) :))

Ya atau Tidak..

2009-08-28T13:45:00.000+08:00

Adakah orang di sekeliling anda membuat anda selesa?
Ya

Adakah orang yang mahu menemani anda makan?
Ya,sentiasa ada..

Adakah anda tahu (paling kurang) 2 orang yang anda berasa aman dengannya?
Ya

Adakah anda senang menghabiskan waktu sendirian?
Ya

Jika anda bermasalah, apakah anda memiliki teman untuk berbincang?
Ya,ada..

Adakah anda gemar membangggakan teman anda?
Ya,sememangnya..

Adakah anda memiliki teman baru tahun lalu?
Tidak..

Jawapan bagi soalan di atas samada YA atau TIDAK sahaja. Jika anda memiliki lebih dari 3 jawapan TIDAK, anda mungkin sedang kesepian tanpa anda sedari. Jangan khuatir, bangunkan hubungan sosial lama atau baru dengan menghantarkan tag ini kepada lebih dari 3 orang teman.

Ok,za..aku dah jwb sumer soalan kuiz ni walaupun tak faham pun apekah tujuannye..huhu

Bintang Kehidupan..

2009-08-28T11:13:00.000+08:00

Bintang Kehidupan-Ronnie & Yanti Ariyanto

Jenuh aku Mendengar
Manisnya Kata Cinta
Lebih Baik Sendiri
Bukannya Sekali
Seringku Mencoba
Namun Kugagal Lagi

Mungkin Nasib Ini
Suratan Tanganku
Harus Tabah Menjalani

Jauh Sudah Melangkah
Menyusuri Hidupku
Yang Penuh Tanda Tanya

Kadang Hati Bimbang
Menentukan Sikapku
Tiada Tempat Mengadu

Hanya Iman Di Dada
Yang Membuatku Mampu
Slalu Tabah Menjalani

Reff #

Malam Malam aku Sendiri
Tanpa Cintamu Lagi Ohoh Hoho
Hanya Satu Keyakinanku
Bintang Kan Bersinar
Menerpa Hidupku
Bahagia Kan Datang Oh Oh

Lagu ini adalah lagu kegemaranku.Bila dengar saja lagu ni aku pasti akan teringatkan seseorang,lagu ini juga adalah lagu kegemarannya.Malangnya dia sudah tiada lagi..

A-Z

2009-08-28T10:16:00.000+08:00

As you wish,za I would complete this quiz..

A. Attached or single? single & available
I’m not married yet nor do I tied the knot with anybody ,so I consider myself as single laa..

B. Best Friend? Yes..i do have best friends
Life is bored without my bestie

C. Cake or Pie? Cake and it must be blueberry cake.yummyy..

D. Day of choice? Friday

E. Essential Item(s)? My handphone,my car,my glasses & my watch

F. Favorite color? Blue,pink & green

G. Gummy bears or worms? None of them..

H. Hometown? Parit Buntar

I. Favorite Indulgence? I would say creamy food..Grrrr..

J. January or July? January..

K. Kids? Ya..hopefully I’ll be blessed with some kids.

L. Life isn’t complete without?
People around me..

M. Marriage date? Don’t have any idea yet..somebody please tell me..hahaha

N. Number of magazine subscriptions. I don’t subscript to any mags but usually I read CLEO.

O. Oranges or Apples? Orange..i not really fond of apple

P. Phobias? Jambatan gantung..

Q. Quotes? Don’t worry be happy!

R. Reasons to smile? Because I smile back to someone who first smiling at me..muehehehe

S. Season Of Choice? Spring, where the plants will start to grow..it is very nice view I think..

T. Tag five people/groupDon wan 2 tag anyone,can i? huhuhu..

U. Unknown fact about me? Because it is unknown therefore I think it is better to be unknown forever.miahahaha..

V. Vegetable? Pineapple,bean sprout,any green vegetables would be js fine..

Worst Habit? Erk..i would say sometimes I like to procrastinate things..not good haa?

X. X Ray or Ultrasound? Me, to be frank I hate to do all of these check up..

Y. Your favorite foods? I would list down some:
-Kuewteow kungfu
-Mee bandung
-ABC
-Fruit juices

Z. Zodiac sign? Sagittarius

Then..again..

2009-04-16T11:04:00.000+08:00

I'm hurt but i pretend i'm not..
What i wanna do most at this time is to protect myself.
Enough..i don wan to feel the PAIN again.
Can I? I'll try my best.
I'm the one who should take a good care of myself.
I wanna be my own best friend.
Ya,KERANA DIRIKU BEGITU BERHARGA.

Men are from Mars,Women Are From Venus

2009-02-19T17:32:00.000+08:00

Want to know something.Kawan aku kadang2 ada tanya nape ko selalunya cool je,contonhya bila naik kete dgn lelaki,dia sesat jalan & bawak meronda2 dulu ke mana ntah.Tak pernah lak aku nk marah2 & membebel.I must said that, you must understand men’s character.Dulu aku pun macam tu gak,kalau dh sesat tu mulalah tak senang,mesti nak soh orang tu turun pegi tanya orang.Tetapi,percayalah lelaki selalunya takkan turun dulu.Dia akan pusing2 cari sampai dapat dulu,kalau dh tak jumpa sgt baru dia akan tanya org.Aku dah biasa.

Sy membaca buku psikologi yer tentang lelaki.From the books Men are from Mars,Women Are From Venus: men value power,competency, efficiency,and achievement.To look capable and competence is very useful to them.Jika sesat sekejap pun biar je,let him solve the problem.He is a man,he wanna look capable in front of you girls.

To offer a man unsolicited advice is to presume that he doesn’t know what to do or that he can’t do it on his own.Men are very touchy about this ,because the issue of competence is so very important to them.

Sekarang sy sudah faham sbb tu sy malas nk ckp banyak.Kalau ko membebel dan bagi suggestion ingat diaorng leh terima ke.Memburukkan keadaan jer karang.Mulalah akan berperang mulut.Keadaan akan mejadi tegang pulak.Dia mesti nk settle cara dia jugak.So lebih baik diam & tengok jer cara dia selesaikan.Diaorang kalau mmg betul2 perlukan pertolongan dia akan minta nnti.Selagi dia belum minta tu maknanya dia masih ok & boleh settle sendiri.So relaks dan tengokkan je dulu.Perempuan lain mesti tak setuju dgn cara aku ni.Hahahaha..Mesti tau bila masanya patut bersuara dan bila masa tidak.Bukannya aku jenis yg diam jer.

Love myth..

2009-02-18T17:18:00.000+08:00

Dear readers,

Luna would like to talk about some love myth. Love is not just about some lovey dovey thingy all the time, we need to face the reality.

Love myth: True love conquers all

Reality: Love is not enough to make relationship work-it needs compatibility and commitment.

Luna: Common perception : I love you & you love me,that’s enough.Not enough actually.True love need greater commitment and lots of time.Everything has a process rite? One more thing, no matter how much you love that person if you both lack of compatibility and chemistry,it still won’t work.Please don’t waste your time.Find someone that’s more compatible.

Love myth:Love at the first sight

Reality: It takes just a moment to experience crush with someone,but true love takes time.

Luna: I never believe at love at the first sight.I never had such experience.To me we need to get to know the person very well before we gonna like him/her.So I suppose, I believe at love at 9th or 10th sight maybe.Hahaha..You must be watching too much romantic story if you believe on this.

Love myth: Love is blind

Reality: You the one who is blind

Luna: I don’t believe on this also.You have been blessed with your rationale.You can differentiate between good and bad thing.Right or wrong.Don’t be over cloud with your emotion till you have the wrong judgement.Be practical ok.

If I have an option I rather opt to have my best friend as the love of my life.It is very practical I think.Hehehehe

Al-Fatihah

2009-02-11T10:11:00.000+08:00

Aku sangat mengantuk pagi ni.Drive pun dalam keadaan mengantuk.Semalam,aku tidur tak berapa nyenyak.Asyik sekejap2 terjaga,sekejap terjaga.Lepas tu badan jadi sgt letih sbb menangis & sgt sedih.Aku sgt terkejut,kejutan ini masih belum hilang.I need some time to be alone for a while.Aku teringat semua perkara,dari hari pertama aku mengenali abg ipar aku sehinggalah kali terakhir aku melihat dia di bilik mayat.Itulah kali petama aku memasuki bilik mayat.Rasa macam nak sakit jantung ketika mula2 nak masuk dalam tu.Aku mengurut2 dadaku.Aku seolah2 masih tidak percaya yg abg dikin sudah meninggal.Kini aku terpaksa berdepan dgn realiti,melihat mayatnya.

Mujur kak tess menemani aku masuk,sempat lihat sekejap sahaja sbb org dah nk mandikan dia.Memang dia,mmg itu adalah abg dikin.Now, I have to accept the reality.Sedikit-sedikit aku baru nak menerima,badan aku sebenarnya dah rasa lain
macam.Aku merasa badan aku dah seram sejuk.Aku tak nangis lagi masa tu,masih boleh layan kak tess sembang2.Aku tengok kakak aku,berpakaian serba hitam.Berjubah hitam & memakai kacamata hitam.Akak aku sebenarnya menyembunyikan segala kesedihannya disebalik pakaiannya itu.Orang tak nampak matanya yg bengkak disebabkan banyak menangis di sebalik kacamata hitam dia itu.Anyway,walau macammana pun akak aku masih boleh bertahan.She is a tough girl,even tougher than me.The girls born in my family all have this character.Aku sgt susah nk menangis depan org,aku selalunya menangis hanya ketika aku berseorangan.Itu bukan bermakna aku tidak sedih,aku menangis di dalam hati.Kalau aku menangis meraung di depan akak aku,mestilah dia lagi sedih.Dia pulak yg kena tenangkan aku karang,sepatutnya aku yg support dia.

Sekali lagi aku masuk ke bilik mayat bersama akak aku untuk menjirus air ke atas jenazah.Kali ini aku dapat melihatnya mayat abg dikin secara keseluruhan.Aku tak sanggup tengok lama2.I’m afraid I’ll broke down.Tak dapat digambarkan perasaan aku ketika itu.Tangan aku terketar2 ketika menjirus air ke atas jenazah arwah.Perasaan ketika berada di bilik mayat itu mmg tidak dapat digambarkan.Dengan baunya yg agak aneh sedikit,bau kapur barus rasenya.Sesiapa yg lemah semangat mmg tidak digalakkan masuk rasanya.Aku sempat melihat jenazah disembahyangkan di situ.Jenazah kemudiannya di bawa pulang ke kampung halaman abg dikin di Kg Gajah,Perak untuk disemadikan.Kak long dan mak & abah sudah berada di sana rasanya.

Aku tidak boleh bersembahyang,jadi tidak dapatlah membaca yasin utk arwah.Aku cuma sedekahkan al-Fatihah utk arwah tetapi diniatkan sebagai zikir ketika membacanya.Bukannya org yg ma’zurah tidak boleh membaca ayat al-Quran langsung,ada sesetengah ayat boleh dibaca tapi diniatkan sbg zikir.Itu bapa aku yg beritahu.Sepanjang malam tadi aku sangat sedih.Aku berbalas sms dgn liza,kemudiannya menelefon dia.Dalam telefon pun boleh menangis lagi bila ceritakan ttg arwah.Rupanya dia mahu lakukan sesuatu untuk akak aku sebelum dia pergi.Bila teringat tentang itu aku tak dapat menahan sebak.Arwah memanggil aku dgn panggilan ‘baby’.Rahsia aku pecah selepas ally menghantar kad raya ke rumah aku dgn menulis nama tu.Semenjak itu dia panggil aku dgn panggilan tu.Akibat asyik menangis mungkin badan aku terasa letih, kemudiannya aku tertidur.

Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas arwah dan ditempatkan bersama-sama orang yang beriman.Al-Fatihah..

Happy is a choice!

2009-01-28T16:48:00.000+08:00

The first thing that ifa,my best friend said when she see me last time was “you look happy.”I said really,dear? Then we hugged each other.

Scarlett O’hara, the foremost character in the classic ‘Gone With The Wind’, believed that only one thing would make her happy-becoming Mrs. Ashley Wilkes.When Ashley married another woman, Scarlett set out to make his life miserable and in the process,she made her own life miserable.Rather than swallow her disappointment and make the best of things,she threw her happiness away with both hands.

Sure,happiness is an emotion,but it is also a choice.You can choose to be happy rather than sad,optimistic rather than pessimistic,or hopeful rather than doubtful.In that regard at least,no one can steal your happiness-it is yours to do with as you please.

To embrace happiness,you must first let go of misery.

Quoted from one book.

I do like the movie,Gone With The Wind starring the charming Omar Sharrif.
Yes, for me to happiness is a choice. Happiness can be learned. First, identify what are the things that can make you happy.Then,go for it.

The skill is very important you know, to ensure your excellent health. Healthy I mean, physically and emotionally. Ill soul can lead to the ill body.They are related.When your souls is sick it takes time sometimes to be cure depend how strong the person is.In some cases it never cure at all, as the result that particular person suffer emotional flaw.First and foremost you must let go your past.

Such a sad story..

2009-01-20T17:22:00.000+08:00

On last Sunday I attended ‘Save The Palestinians’ Campaign organized by COMPLETE (Coalition of Malaysian NGOS Against Persecution of Paletinians).Among the speakers are Tun Dr. Mahathir Mohamad (former Prime Minister) and Dr. Chandra Muzaffar (President of JUST Movement).Sis Nurul Izzah (Lembah Pantai MP) and Malaysian artist Sheila Majid did show up to show their support.

What I concluded from the talk is that the war is not about religion.I mean between Hebrew people and Muslim but it is merely about OCCUPATION and SURVIVAL.It has nothing to do about religion.The Jews need a land for their survival,for their wellbeing, to ensure the continuity of their offspring .British promised to give the land to the Jews but at the end they’ve failed to deliver the promise. They made somebody else paid for their bill.The innocent Palestinians paid the price. Not for a month or short period of time but FOREVER.The Jews occupation of Palestine started 60 years ago and never ended until today.

I don’t have a heart to see the in the news, everyday,there will be someone who was dead.Blood is everywhere.School and building collapse as the result of explosive bomb.Chilren crying because of injuries and lost of their parents.This reality made me sick.I feel the pain also.This is the biggest abuse of human right and the biggest holocaust on earth.

However, please keep in mind that Palestinian is the most resilient and tough people. They won’t surrender. They won’t back off, even this war has to last for thousand years.They will never give up their very own land.Therefore, we also have to be consistent in supporting for their struggle and their fighting.Do your own part.The less you can do is pray.Please pray for your dear brothers and sisters.

Old friend is gold,the new one is silver..

2009-01-09T11:06:00.000+08:00

Wanna go..don wanna go..anyway,it is very hard to refuse to your dear bestfriend whom you didn’t meet for quiet a long time.I miss her dearly.Today also her birthday.Shouldn’t let her down on her birthday I suppose.Okay, maybe this is the time for me to have a get away with my old buddies.We meet 8 years ago & this friendship still remain strong until today.Nowadays, it is very hard to find a true friend,so if you meet one,do take a good care of him/her and don’t let him/her go away.Keep in touch.

Kenapa org selalu amik pot pasal hal yg remeh temeh.Sy tidak,sy betul2 dah tak larat nk amik tau pasal hal yg tdk mendtgkan faedah & menambah dos ubat sakit kepala sy .Org nk wat ape,org nk jd ape biarlah diaorg.Itu hidup & mati dia,sy tarak mau msk campur.Sukatik dia la,dh hidup dia.Jgn kacau sy sudah.Cumanya kamu perlu jadi bijak sikit,kdg2 org suka bermain,mcm2 permainan.Kamu cuma perlu tau bezakan antara seorang jujur & seorang yg penipu.Sifat org yg munafik:
1)Bila berbalah dia melampau batasan
2)Bila bercakap dia menipu
3) Bila berjanji,dia mungkir janji

Jadi jauhilah org yg bersifat macam tu,pasti hidup kamu akan aman sikit.That’s all.Hidup kamu adalah pilihan kamu.Kamu boleh pilih ape yg kamu nk jadi.Jika pilih utk bahagia,berbahagialah jadinya jika pilih sebaliknya maka akan jadi sebaliknyalah.Just you have to live life to the fullest.

Good bye 2008

2009-01-08T15:46:00.000+08:00

gOOd Bye 2008 with all the stories behind .Chapter closed & has been sealed.No turning back .Bye..bye..bye..Welcome 2009 with the new chapter.New year,new challenge,rite?
New age,therefore should be wise & matured then before.I wonder why some people still act childishly.

Me, I must say I’m not a hypocrite.If I don’t like something you will see it clearly in my face.I dunno how to pretend to be so nice.That’s not me.Benda yg sy tak suka jgn dipaksa ok.Sy tak suka tak sukalah.Buatlah mcmmana pun sy tak akan boleh suka.Nk tergolek ke,terguling ke depan sy,sumer tu tak akan menarik perhatian sy.

Lagi pulak mau psiko sama aku pulak.Ingat aku tak tau ke.aku pun dh lama idup gak.Tak boleh blah punya orglah.Macam kelakar pun ade aku tengok.Sukatik kolah nk wat ape.Tiada kena mengena idup & mati dgn aku.Aku banyak benda lg nk pk ni haa..Sekolah tinggi2 tp masih tak faham bahasa.Taktaulah aku.Lantak kolah labu..

Bye..bye..bye..

2009-01-02T17:22:00.000+08:00

(Hey, Hey)
Bye, Bye, Bye
Bye, Bye...
Bye, Bye...
Oh, Oh..

I'm doin' this tonight,
You're probably gonna start a fight.
I know this can't be right.
Hey baby come on,
I loved you endlessly,
When you weren't there for me.
So now it's time to leave and make it alone
I know that I can't take no more
It ain't no lie
I wanna see you out that door
Baby, bye, bye, bye...

Bye Bye
Don't wanna be a fool for you
Just another player in your game for two
You may hate me but it ain't no lie,
Baby, bye, bye, bye...
Bye Bye
Don't really wanna make it tough,
I just wanna tell you that I had enough.
It might sound crazy,
But it ain't no lie,
Baby, bye, bye, bye

(Oh, Oh)
Just hit me with the truth,
Now, girl you're more than welcome to.
So give me one good reason,
Baby come on
I live for you and me,
And now I really come to see,
That life would be much better once you're gone.

I know that I can't take no more
It ain't no lie,
I wanna see you out that door
Baby, bye, bye, bye...
Bye Bye
Don't wanna be a fool for you
Just another player in your game for two
You may hate me but it ain't no lie,
Baby Bye, bye, bye...
Bye Bye
Don't really wanna make it tough,
I just wanna tell you that I had enough (ooh ooh)
It might sound crazy,
But it ain't no lie,
Baby, bye, bye, bye

I'm giving up I know for sure
I don't wanna be the reason for your love no more
Bye Bye
I'm checkin' out
I'm signin' off
Don't wanna be the loser and I've had enough

Don't wanna be your fool
In this game for two
So I'm leavin' you behind
Bye, bye, bye...

I don't wanna make it tough (wanna make it tough)
But I had enough
And it ain't no lie (Bye, bye baby...)
Bye, Bye
Don't wanna be a fool for you
Just another player in your game for two (I don't wanna be your fool)
But it ain't no lie
Baby bye, bye, bye...

Don't really wanna make it tough (don't really wanna make it tough),
I just wanna tell you that I had enough (that I had enough).
Might sound crazy,
But it ain't no lie,
Bye, bye, bye

Happy birthday to Luna!

2008-12-16T11:50:00.002+08:00

Dear my blog,

Today is my birthday.I almost forgot about that.After I received email from Jobstreet yesterday wishing me Happy birthday then only I notice.So what is the birthday girl’s wish? My wish is very simple.Please give me enough days to feel, embrace and cherish all form of love in this earth.

We love while we can

We smile while we can

We laugh while we can

We joke while we can

We cherish each other while we can

So seize the moment and don’t let it go away.

Birthday girl will now find a blueberry cake to cherish her day.

Life is the greatest gift

2008-12-12T09:46:00.000+08:00

I’m back again.Still in a good shape but tireddddddddddddd to death.What happened was, my mom still ok when I’m home after driving 4 hours and half from KL.She’s a bit shock but didn’t scold or nag at me.Hohoho..what a relief.Anyway,still my pa & ma would like to accompany me on my way back to KL.Mom would like to pay a visit to my sista,sis maziah.They would like to see her brand new house.Pa said, he & ma must come over here to see their children,to spend the time with their children,to get close to them.I noticed that, the more older he is the more caring he is towards his kids.My pa used to be the very ‘garang’ dad before.Now, it is the different thing.Hehe..

My pa already show a sign of ageing, he can’t recall exactly the location of streets.I know I may lose him in any time and I have to be ready.He walks very slow and always complaint he suffer a pain in his chest.I know if I didn’t follow my parents and my sister to perform umrah on last June, I may not have the chance again.I mean the last chance to perform umrah together with my parents.At least I’d done something to them.They take a good care of me from I’m a small baby girl till I able to take care my ownself.Now, it’s my time to repay.It’s now or never.Not much time left.

One thing about my dad that made me so touched is dad will always severe all of the gifts I gave to him. Even if the things already is too old to be used he will just keep it.He never dump it.Daddy still wear the watch I gave him till now.I learnt the lesson from him.If you really love a person you’ll keep safe the gift from him/her.It has sentimental value, no amount of money can buy it.It become my habit, I always cherish the gift I’ve had.Furthermore, I originally came from not so well off family.Therefore,since I were small,I always appreciate everything that I had.Life is the greatest gift from Allah,at least be thankful that you still alive,can breath some fresh air.

Salam Aidiladha

2008-12-05T16:39:00.001+08:00

Dear all,
Luna would like to wish all of you;
HAPPY EIDULADHA!!!
“Kullu am wa antom bikhair,Insya-Allah.”

Luna also would like to apologize if she by no intention have hurt or offend anyone in any way. Your kind apologize really appreciated. Hopefully, you will enjoy your eid with your loved ones. Till we meet again in my next post. Be good and be wise. Take care.

Things a woman must do before she turns 30

2008-12-04T15:05:00.000+08:00

My sister phoned me asking me whether I’m going back or not for this coming Eidul Adha.My answer is very simple,if you see me at home,meaning I’m back at home,however, if you cannot find me anywhere at home,meaning I’m not there.Poor sis, for having such a wink wink younger sister like me.Ehehehe..

The truth is I’m planning to make a surprise. Yes, I’ll be back at my hometown by car, my precious silver cutie, I mean. I’ll do the driving alone for the first time.Hopefully, mom will not be so stressful after learnt about this .Mom, I need to do something I didn’t do before I turn 30,including this one. Travel back home all by yourself. I must try long distant driving.

So what are the other things in the list?

• Change your car’s tire all by yourself
• Travel somewhere by yourself-a foreign country, another city or just a weekend road trip
• Dump your toxic friend
• Break someone’s heart, get your heart broken too
• Quit your sloppy job
• Make a killer joke (this one I must try hard) ahahaha
• Dine in a fine restaurant unaccompanied
• Volunteer for a charity you really care about
• Forgive someone who wronged you; apologized to someone you’ve hurt
• Drive a wickedly cool car, even if you have to rent it
• Find out which friends you can and can’t trust,and learn not to take it personally
• Learn the CPR and Heimlich manoeuvre
• Buy a complete set of screwdrivers and a cordless drill
• Do something kind but don’t tell anyone

These are to do things list women should experience before their turn 30, I got it in a magazine. I found this quite interesting. Sometimes, you should do something you never do, something different, in order to taste the sweet and bitter of life. You better experience this in order to be more matured, grown up and stronger.

Can I Borrow $25?

2008-11-29T10:26:00.000+08:00

This is an old story that you may have read it before somehow from somewhere.

Read it again cos when i did.... my tears nearly roll down again....and of cos it reminded me that i should spend my time more wisely.. :)

Read on....

A man came home from work late, tired and irritated, to find his 5-year old son waiting for him at the door.

SON: 'Daddy, may I ask you a question?'

DAD: 'Yeah sure, what it is?' replied the man.

SON: 'Daddy, how much do you make an hour?'

DAD: 'That's none of your business. Why do you ask such a thing?' the man said angrily.

SON: 'I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?'

DAD: 'If you must know, I make $50 an hour.'

SON: 'Oh,' the little boy replied, with his head down.

SON: 'Daddy, may I please borrow $25?'

The father was furious, 'If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you are being so selfish. I don't work hard everyday for such childish frivolities.'

The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door.

The man sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's questions. How dare he ask such questions only to get some money?

After about an hour or so, the man had calmed down , and started to think:

Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that $25.00 and he really didn't ask for money very often The man went to the door of the little boy's room and opened the door.

'Are you asleep, son?' He asked.

'No daddy, I'm awake,' replied the boy.

'I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier' said the man. 'It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here's the $25 you asked for.'

The little boy sat straight up, smiling. 'Oh, thank you daddy!' he yelled. Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills.

The man saw that the boy already had money, started to get angry again.

The little boy slowly counted out his money, and then looked up at his father.

'Why do you want more money if you already have some?' the father grumbled.

'Because I didn't have enough, but now I do,' the little boy replied.

'Daddy, I have $50 now. Can I buy an hour of your time? Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you.'

The father was crushed. He put his arms around his little son, and he begged for his forgiveness. [Agnes ] after this line (in blue) my heart feel sour and sad and touchL

It's just a short reminder to all of you working so hard in life. We should not let time slip through our fingers without having spent some time with those who really matter to us, those close to our hearts. Do remember to share that $50 worth of your time with someone you love or someone who really loves you so much, cos you mean everything to her/him.

If we die tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of hours. But the family & friends & Loves one we leave behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives.

Please don't break this even if you only pass it to one person. Thanks

luna: i also found this one is very touching.how sweet the little boy.i got this from an email.so pls pass around.money is useless without our loved ones in life.

40 Tips For Better Life

2008-11-28T17:21:00.000+08:00

1. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day. And while you walk, smile.

2. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.

3. Sleep for 7 hours.

4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.

5. Play more games..

6. Read more books than you did in 2007.

7. Make time to practice meditation, yoga, and prayer. They provide us with

daily fuel for our busy lives.

8. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.

9. Dream more while you are awake.

10. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is

manufactured in plants.

11. Drink plenty of water.

12. Try to make at least three people smile each day.

13. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.

14. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with his/her

mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.

15. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead

invest your energy in the positive present moment.

16. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are

simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class

but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.

17. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.

18. Smile and laugh more.

19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.

20. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

21. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

22. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.

23. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey

is all about. Don't compare your partner with others.

24. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.

25. Forgive everyone for everything.

26.. What other people think of you is none of your business.

27. GOD ! heals everything.

28. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

29. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your loved ones & friends will.

Stay in touch.

30. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.

31. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

32. The best is yet to come.

33. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

34. Do the right thing!

35. Call your family often.

36. Your inner most is always happy. So be happy.

37. Each day give something good to others.

38. Don't over do. Keep your limits.

39. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.*

40. Please pass this to everyone you care about.

Luna: No. 5. Play more games??..Hmm..What kind of game I want to play ya. Exactly, not computer games. I don’t like virtual game, I like the real game. Something that involving our physical movement.

My Favourite Song

2008-11-26T11:05:00.000+08:00

AKU DAN DIRIMU

Tiba saat nya kita saling bicara
Tentang perasaan yang kian menyiksa
Tentang rindu yg menggebu
Tentang cinta yang tak terungkap

Sudah terlalu lama kita berdua
Tenggelam dalam gelisah yang tak teredam
Memenuhi mimpi mimpi malam kita

Reff:

Duhai cintaku sayangku lepaskanlah
Perasaanmu rindumu sluruh cintamu
Dan kini hanya ada aku dan dirimu

Sesaat di keabadian

Jika sang waktu bisa kita hentikan
Dan sgala mimpi mimpi jadi kenyataan
Meleburkan semua batas
Antara kau dan aku…. kita

Anyway, it is not to late to wish,congratulations for the singer of this song,Bunga for his newly wed to Ashraf.

Taking Care of Yourself

2008-11-25T14:13:00.000+08:00

To answer the question of how well you’re loving yourself, ask yourself the following question: Do you spend a lot of time focusing on other people’s problems? It’s much easier to focus on the problem of others than to deal with our own flaws.Maybe we look at others than to deal with our own flaws. Maybe we looks at other people’s problem because we are truly concerned with their well-being. Or we do it because we feel responsible for other people-more responsible, even than we feel for ourselves.If you develop a good, caring, honest relationship with yourself, you will be able to help others when they need it. When you take a good care of yourself and your emotional life, you allow others to see you as a model of self-love. You automatically pass it around If you want to have a positive influence on your friends or family, do it by setting an example through your own behaviour.

Collin Mortensen of Chicken Soup For The Soul.

Luna: Sometimes I do think I focus more to other’s people problem more than my own well being. True to say, I quite a caring person. I can’t help being so concern about others especially somebody who are very close to me. Nowadays, I have the feeling that I also need to take care my own self. If I don’t appreciate myself who else will appreciate me?

Yep, it is easy to look into other people problem and their flaws rather than our own imperfection.To look into yourself, you must see it through the mirror.The nearest mirror is your friend, try to see yourself from their eyes.You will get some input.

Yes, I do feel responsible towards my family,my friends and people around me.But as the time passed, I realized that as long as that person able to take care himself / herself ,no need for me to meddle into their own affairs.I have to look at myself now, whether I take a good care of myself and my emotional life.Only after I assured that I’m taking care of myself properly then I can give my best to others. I’m trying to be realistic.You see ya,if you yourself looks so vulnerable and disorganize how you gonna help others?That’s the idea.Yes, you can help others but not to the extent you deprive your own need. What I wanna do is I want to be fair to myself.

Furthermore, my friends always said to me: “We always think about others, but do they really care about us?” They got the point.Only appreciate people who appreciate us, forget about those who don’t.Life is too short and friends are too few.

Trying to be my own besfriend

2008-11-22T11:03:00.000+08:00

Being a friend to yourself is as important as anything you will ever do. Things will instantly begin to improve for you. And the better friend you are to yourself, the better friend you will be to others. All in all, the end result of being good to yourself is more inner peace, self esteem and overall happiness.

Think of yourself as a friend. No one deserves to be treated with love and respect more than you do. In order to understand the concept of being a friend to yourself, think about how you act with your very best friend and then make a conscious effort to be that way with yourself. Be supportive, understanding, lighthearted and most important, when you make a mistake, be forgiving.

Remember that self esteem and being your own best friend are not the same as arrogance or selfishness. You know when you are being selfish, and you know when you are just taking care of yourself. Taking care of yourself feels good, whereas being selfish does not. The same is true with confidence. A confident person has no need to put others down. In fact, it is the confidence, self assured person who is supportive of others and wants them to succeed.

Kimberly Kirbeger from the book of Chicken Soup For The Soul.

Luna: My dear, will try to be your best friend. Will treat you with love and respect.
As kind and gentle I treat my bestfriends you also deserve the same treat.Will do what I have to do to make you happy and be very appreciative to you.You also deserve to be happy, I should take a good care of you.

What does besfriend do for his/her friend in need

2008-11-21T12:52:00.000+08:00

All of sudden I feel so sad.So deep it enter my mind, body and soul.My body is also in pain.It is very unfortunate,2 things at the same time.

Quoted from today the stars newspaper, Mr. Razak Baginda answered when he have been asked what lesson he learnt from the ordeal.
“When you are down, you are basically alone.I still have family but when you are down, you are basically alone.”

It is true what he said. I have my family & my friends around but only me understand what I’ve been through. Look at my character, most people describe me as cheerful & a warm person. To really understand me, you don’t just look at the outside but look deep into my eyes .The eyes never lie. The eyes will tell what is inside.

Sometimes I blame myself. Do I love myself enough? Do I taking care myself enough? I realized that I should treat myself as my own best friend. And what best friend do for his/her very dear friend? Before you wanna love others you have to learn to love yourself first. That is the lesson.

The Sexiest Hunk

2008-11-20T12:30:00.000+08:00

People names Jackman 'Sexiest Man Alive'
Published: Nov. 19, 2008 at 11:07 AM

Australian actor Hugh Jackman attends the fourth annual "A Fine Romance", a tribute to Hollywood and Broadway to benefit the Motion Picture and Television Fund in Culver City, California on November 8, 2008. (UPI Photo/Jim Ruymen)

NEW YORK, Nov. 19 (UPI) -- Australian actor Hugh Jackman has been named People magazine's Sexiest Man Alive for 2008.
The 40-year-old film star has played superhero Wolverine in the "X-Men" trilogy and won a Tony Award for his work in the stage musical "The Boy From Oz." He will next be seen opposite Nicole Kidman in the big-screen epic "Australia."
Kidman said she thinks Jackman, a married father of two, is a good choice for People's highest honor.
"Women's jaws drop when Hugh walks into a room," she told the magazine. "Hugh is tough and romantic at the same time. Australian men are a different breed. They're rugged and they sweat."
Deborra-Lee Furness, Jackman's wife of 12 years, said the actor may have a "body of doom," but insists she likes "what's inside."
Asked what his wife's reaction was when she heard he had been declared People's 2008 Sexiest Man Alive, Jackman recalled: "God bless her, she said, 'I could've told them that years ago!' And then she said, 'Obviously, Brad wasn't available this year.' And I said, 'That was a joke, right?'"
Brad Pitt, George Clooney and Matt Damon are some of People's previous Sexiest Man Alive title-holders.
The magazine's 2008 list of sexy men also includes Daniel Craig, Jon Hamm, Zac Efron, Robert Buckley, Blair Underwood, Ed Westwick, Michael Phelps, Javier Bardem, Blake Shelton, Lang Lang, Robert Pattinson, Joshua Jackson and Mark-Paul Gosselaar.
© 2008 United Press International, Inc. All Rights Reserved.

Luna: For me Mr. Jackman is the most macho Hollywood hero I’ve ever seen in the screen.The tough guy yet so romantic also.He has the charm. Nicol is right,women’s jaws will certainly drop whenever they see Mr. Wolverine.My jaw are are going to drop also.ahahahaha..Congrats,Hugh.

Lucky..

2008-11-19T11:09:00.000+08:00

Jason Mraz Lyrics

Luna: This is really my fav song.So sweet -^_^- .You may call me,jiwang jiwangan.Whatever..I just enjoy the melody & lyrics.It is not all about the jiwang2 thingy, I must say that I also enjoy the beauty of the language.I’m once a literature student.I admire & appreciate fine lyrics & fine melody.For me music is a kind of therapy.

This song make me wanna have a best friend and fall in love with him.Jason + Colbie are the purrrrfect combination,their voice really suit each other.And I luv Jason Mraz.Yeahhh…

The Healing 3 Words

2008-11-18T17:03:00.000+08:00

Dear friends & readers,

Speak it as frequent as you can to your loved ones,for they are powerful words.I would like to practice it and see how it works.Now, go & say it,see the miracle it brings.

I’LL BE THERE

If you have ever had to call a friend in the middle of the night,to take a sick child to hospital,or when your car has a broken down some miles from home,you will know how good it feels to hear the phrase ‘‘ill be there’’.Being there for another person is the greatest gift we can give.When we are truly present for other people,important things happen to them and us.We are renewed in love and friendship.We are restored emotionally and spiritually.Being there is at the very core of civility.

I MISS YOU

Perhaps more marriages could be saved and strengthened if couples simply and sincerely said to each other “I miss you’’.This powerful affirmation tell partners they are wanted,needed,desired and loved.Consider how ecstatic you would feel,if you received an unexpected phone call from your spouse in the middle of workday just to say “I miss you”.

I RESPECT YOU

Respect is another way of showing love.Respect conveys the feeling that another person is a true equal.If you talk to your children as if they were adilts you will strengthened the bonds and become close friends.This applies to all interpersonal relationships.

MAYBE YOU’RE RIGHT

This phrase is highly effective in diffusing an argument and restoring frayed emotions.The flip side to “maybe you’re right’’ is the humility of admitting “maybe I’m wrong”.Let’s face it.When you have a heated argument with someone ,all you do is cement the other point of view.They,or you, will not change their stance and you run the risk of seriously damaging the relationship between you and them.Saying “maybe you’re right’’ can open the door to further explore the subject,in which you may then have the opportunity to get your view across in a more rationale manner.

PLEASE FORGIVE ME

Many broken relationships could be restored and healed if people would admit mistakes and ask for forgiveness.All of us are vulnerable to faults,foibles and failures.A man should never be ashamed to own up that he has been in the wrong ,which is saying,in other words,that he is wiser today than he was yesterday.

I THANK YOU

Gratitude is an exquisite form of courtesy.People who enjoy the companionship of good,close friends are those who don’t take daily courtesies for granted.They are quick to thank their friends for their many expressions of kindness.On the other hands,people whose circle of friends is severely constricted often do not have the attitude of gratitude.

COUNT ON ME

Friend is one who walks in when others walk out.Loyalty is an essential ingredient for the true friendship; it is the emotional glue that bonds people.Those that are rich in their relationship tend to be steady and true friends.When troubles come,a good friends is there indicating you can “count on me”.

LET ME HELP

The best of friends see a need and try to fill it.When they spot a hurt they do what they can do to heal it without being asked,they pitch in and help.

I UNDERSTAND YOU

People become closer and enjoy each other more if they feel the other person accepts and understands them.Letting your spouse know in so many little ways that you understand them in so many little ways that you understand them is one of the most powerful tools for healing your relationship.

I LOVE YOU

Perhaps the most important 3 words that you can say.Telling someone that you can say.Telling someone that you truly love them satisfies a person’s deepest emotional needs;the need to belong,to feel appreciated and to be wanted.Your family,your friends and you,all need to need to hear 3 little words. “I love you” when spoken or conveyed,these statements have the power to forge new friendships,deepen old ones and restore relationships that have cooled.These 3 phrases can enrich every relationships.Use them!

Luna: sometimes people just want to hear those words.You may not know how important of those word to them.

my name is luna

2008-10-17T19:05:00.001+08:00

Dear my blog,

Finally, this is the time i'm having my own blog..kind of excited..
luna isn't my real name, but somehow i kind of like the name when i start thinking what name should i write here.
Let me tell you a bit about luna.
Luna is just a simple girl.
Luna appreciate simple pleasure things in life.
Luna loves to smile.
Luna loves to make people happy.
Everyday luna will find the tips on how to make her loved ones happy.
Luna dreams to have a peaceful & harmonious world.
Luna loves to have many friends.
Luna loves nice view.
Luna loves green view.
Luna loves stars & rainbow.
Luna loves ocean.
Luna loves water.
Luna loves animals.
Luna loves to listen to music, music n music.
Luna loves books.
Luna loves to read.
Luna loves to write.
Luna loves English.
Luna loves driving.
Luna loves to surf the net.
Luna loves cool gadget.
Luna loves to watch football match.
Luna dreams to travel around the world one day.

ok,that's a basic about luna.

will write more soon..gotta go...